Oppsy. { Friday, April 30, 2010 * }
And. .. . . and i didn't go for camp. *Slap forehead*
And . . . .. that leads me to thinking of how im gonna answer my CA. Mind me, its not Mr Ooi anymore. Now its Grace. Mdm or mrs whatsover.
Why didn't i go for camp?
Uhmm quite a a few simple and stupid reasons. But mind u, i've already packed for camp. The clothes, bras and undies etc.
First reason, reluctance. So were my other classmates but we have no choice what.
Second, even if im all packed, im still lacking of a torchlight and a sleeping bag. =.=
Yeah i know freaking lame reason.
Third, physcoed my dad to back me up when that Grace calls. Heehs. He agreed. I guess i shall say to her that my parents don't approve of me gg to camp. Parents orders cannot be disobeyed.
Hahhs. I know im landing myself into trouble.
Moving on . .
Tmrw my whole family will be out of town. Yayness to me but booness to me when it comes to sleeping alone in a empty house with only 3 cats. =/
Sigh see how it all goes. bye bye people. +D OMG there's camp. { Wednesday, April 28, 2010 * }
Hello guys im back here again. Blogging. Sharing. Wtv.
Errr yaah anyways, its been 2 weeks of school for me and i guess it ain't that as what i though it was back then on the first day of school. It ain't bad at all. Im loving my classmates. Aged issues hehs i still do have that but whatever i've a young face so hehs some of them even looked older than me. Pheww me. Moving on, there's camp tomorrow. CAMP.
Let me repeat myself, C A M P.
WTF is tat. I meant why should there be a camp.
I hate camp.
Well the activities i mean.
Its gonna be held at Singapore Discovery Centre. ;/
I've been wandering what the hell are we gg to do there and where the hell are we sleeping at. Mosquito repellents is one of the things on the camp list.
Mosquito repellent?
What the hell is that for?
Aren't places like SDC are air-conditioned?
I ain't sleepy in skimpy places.
Ouh well not that i've decided whether i shld be gg or not.
Its compulsary.
I'll pack later.
Lets just pack and see how it goes.
Will start packing and stop procastinating.
But urgh idk. Indecisive.
Well its only for a night. I meant 2 days and 1 night.
=/
Why can't i have a class who are freaking ditching this camp.
Dun get me wrong, im lovin my classmates. ;D
Bah.
Ouh can't wait for Saturday. Im home alone ! Yayness !
I got my own plans only when it comes to sleeping alone with only 3 cats, the imagination is really not helping.
Im happy now. Its just me. { Monday, April 26, 2010 * }
Changes.
The changes i made to myself are freaking drastic in a huge way until the furtherst word to decribe who i am was actually the first thought they had in mind.
Im not offended.
Im sad, but i guess its true,
Maybe i don't need to go to sinful places.
Sinful places doesn't tell it all, my actions does so.
Im stupid.
I believe all that.
I put on hopes and i nearly get that until i made another mistake that ruins it all.
Forever.
Now nothing could chnage back to what it was back then.
If doesn't does change, i'll accept it all.
Because maybe for me i've changed, my i guess the chnage was so little that it doesn't make
any difference to it all.
Nobody's at fault, its just me.
I may be angry cos nobody can tell how i really feel.
People may think and assumed but they don't know how i feel deep down.
Yet my actions does not shows how i really feel deep down.
And for that, it ruins it all.
Even if i said it from the bottom of my heart and it ain't a lie, the truth,
for them, its just a lie and a trick to get u back.
Maybe i've been blind.
Now i've realize tat u're not moving on like i tot u are. First day. { Monday, April 19, 2010 * }
In less than 2 hrs, i have to be at school.
First day of school . . .
Lets see how it goes.
Its 0035am now. Obviously first day of school had ended.
First impression?
Lets just say , i'll just endure this freaking course for two years and get back on my tourism again after this.
Ask me again why am i in Business Administration again?
I've been asking myself eversince i step into class this afternoon.
Im gonna be a good girl.
If not good, i'll try to be normal .
Cos obviously, if i have that kind of attitude last year, i'll be kicked out sooner or later.
Not that i mind, just thinking abt adult fares, boredom and waiting for January next year will be such a pain. Not really pain, just mundane.
Should i just drop out ?
Let me endure it all and lets see how tmrw goes.
Bye.
Timetable sucks.
Im gg to school at 8.
Im gg for S & W.
What a freaking joke ! =.=
I know im being such a bitch brat. Not being grateful.
The feeling is like when u get a 49 and wanting to get a 50?
U know what i mean?
And obviously im totally offscale of my insights and focus right now.
Seriously.
Damn.
Life a bitch.
Lost EVERYTHING.
Guess im just gonna fake it till i make it.
See how thing goes.
Not buying uniforms yet. I have my own plan (s) . Ouhhh the past and present. { Thursday, April 15, 2010 * }
Hi there people.
U know , well idk.
Okay lets see. .. ouh yaa i've been reading out my past posts for the whole of last year and i can say that life was not mundane at all. And u , i mean u, u made me an overall happy and jubilent person last year. I meant it. I guess im gonna have yet another different year ahead of me this year.
Im still living in the past.
Past as in 2009 past.
For the before 2009, i dun really think of it that much.
Because, for 2009, that is where everything changes and so did i.
Too much changes.
Beneficial and non-beneficial changes.
What more can i say now lets see.. . .
I guess for that one thing i know and i feel, it will remain inside me until idk when something tells me to just move on.
=)
Im letting it all go now. I guess so and i hope so hees.
Lets start again.
Monday im gg back to school people and not really excited.
I hate first day of school.
Eversince kindergarten.
To top it off, school started a week ago hahs.
Well see how it goes then.
=D Hi hello hola boo ! { Wednesday, April 14, 2010 * }
Uhmm no worries i won't be the irritaing ex girlfriend anymore. I decided. So have fun wit ur life. =D
Anyway my blog is alive ! Uhmmm yeah lame.
Whatever.
Im not feeling good.
But there's something for me to cheer abt !
Not totally cheer cheer hooray but yeah it makes me happy. No no relieved shld be e word.
School called me up for a interview tmrw.
Yayness.
I need to do my research on Administration.
Honestly, im not really sure abt the course.
Did a lil bit of research abt the course earlier and somehow or so i roughly get the idea
but not that much.
Ouh well whatever it is, i won't blow this opportunity.
Hopefully i can into the course.
I can see hope.
Nonsense crappers me.
Ouhkay thats about all i can say here.
Update tmrw.
Awwww.. . I love u ghostly readers.
I gotta take a shower now. The first for the day and its nearly 7pm hahahaahaha !
BYE !
Of course im sad. But no use hanging ard u anymore if nothing is changing. Don't think im doing good and jolly well happy cos im not.
Ugh i can't sleep.
Eventhough i slept like 5plus in the morning yesterday and woke up like 6hrs later.
I was sleepy thru out the day and managed to somehow sleep for 2omins just nice before
Hairspray started.
Missed the Shrek Forever and After thingy.
I repeat.
Ugh i can't sleep.
Kept tossing and turning.
Then lay still and started what else besides daydreaming.
Im still not used to it.
Not this unable to sleep situation, just this one thing that will always be in my mind.
One thing.
One person.
And to top it all, everything else just sucks.
My life sucks right now.
Totally. Useless.
Sigh.
People are getting ready for school tmrw but im not.
Fine i know others may have the same situation as me but seriously, it sucks isn't it?
At the age of just 19, well in my case lets just say 18.
Im like lost.
March and April dislikes me so much.
Many things happened during this two months.
At least last year April, im kinda have a life, have a school and have someone by my side.
Ouhh intan, let it go.
Reality checked intan, nothing will change for this one matter that is always stucked in ur mind.
But how could i not to ?
Not thinking about it.
Its hard to let go.
I can't move forward cos i kept reversing and get stuck there.
Sigh.
I really hope my appeal will be a successful one.
Please ITE, at least give me something to cheer me up.
Mistakes.
Looking back at it all and wonder how we can turn back time to change it all.
But what for. If mistakes are being made again.
Or its too late to do something abt it.
Everything lost.
Everything ended.
Everything crashed down.
And the sad thing is when u know its u who made it to what it is now.
It hurts.
But then u finally understood that it hurt that other person more than we imagine it to be.
Then, like i said, everything ended.
Because its u who lead to all these.
These mistakes.
I lead to all these. My mistakes.
Reality checked and im awake now. No more daydreaming.
I accept it.
No worries. I'll move on.
Thank you for everything. I appreciate it all.
Even if i meant nothing, u still and always mean something to me.
Hey there .
Its monday, i've to get up early and met up with my classmates to appeal.
Taken into consideration that we have no idea what to do,
end up gg from here to there and around.
Didn't get what i mean ?
Well im too sleepy-headed to explain.
Just wishes everything will go well this time.
Well, i guess my behaviour backfire me this time.
No. Its all the time.
Its not only based on GPA, other reasons as well.
For us the reasons may be invalid, but for those in charge, it is. Bah.
Friends said im stupid, blowing up my chances with my behaviour.
Teacher told me , told you so.
Well that helps.
Help in a way by making me think of how a dumbass i am.
Fine, i shall say its my fault. Im not always punctual, i often ran away frm classes and im not really in good terms with my CA.
In my way of looking at it.
Well screw me then.
Im appealing for Business Studies, Administration.
My overall GPA is more than enough to land me in that course.
Hey, even if its only ITE, i mean my working my ass of in ITE so what?
Its still a building whereby education is also being held at.
Its just the standards that are different.
So who cares?
All i can say is that, in ITE really did help improvised me a lot.
In my studies i mean.
Anyways, my overall GPA is 3.068 or something. Bah.
I may not be satisfied but well its good enough. Alhamdullillah.
Oh gees, for once i appreaciate what i got.
Now i sound like a snob.
And and and . . im waiting for the results. Im hoping hard for that.
Im not ready to enter the 'working adults' environment yet.
Neither am i ready to use adult fares. =.=
I guess for the last two weeks i've been dreaming until u hit me back to reality.
Im sad. Im feeling really downcast.
First thing, im lost. I mean idk where im leading to now if things isn't gg the right way.
The way ive planned it to be.
I mean, i've been lost abt my education journey once and now im in this situation again.
At least last year, i had backup plans.
Going into ITE wasn't a mistake. I don't regret it at all.
Thats why im hoping to progress in ITE but the result was devastating.
Im totally sad. I've no words to decribe what im feeling now.
Its not because i did bad in my exams okay. Get that. Thanks.
My mind getting creative by the minute, thinking of the possibilities and negatives possibilities as well.
If its negative, i'll just break down.
Im hoping i'll get into that course.
Im gonna appeal. Appeal hard.
But at the same, i don't want to do things due to desperate measures.
Like, for example, vacancies available in other courses are like engineering, megatronics etc.
Honestly, im nt interested in any.
Second thing, i don't have any idea about the courses.
And. Its common sense. Higher nitec is for 2 years.
2 years.
Im not gonna involve myself in a course that im not interested at all for two years.
Interest still take a stand in my situation. Get it?
Still. idk.
My looking forward to Monday and see how thing goes.
My plans are messed up once again. And this time im really feeling down.
For O levels, yeah i can say serve me right cos my grades ain't good. Sucks.
But now, im doing well in school.
Its like wth for me. You feel what i feel people?
Still. i have to have faith in myself again and pick myself up, think positive.
Maybe i'll be given a space and a second chance.
For now, i'll just wait.
Hey hair .. Don't ever leave me. I love you even if u don't see that in my face and the way im acting. Please.
SCREEEEEEWWWWW MY GOOD FCUKING GRADES OKAY !
JUST SCREW IT ALL AWAY !
Im freaking sad right now, sadder than ever.
I didn't get a school and for the vacancies left in courses, only those electronic courses that are
available.
This time, ITE really makes me feel sooo downcast and fcuking low.
It ain't funny.
I don't care if my GPA are 3 and above, i made it on the top list or whatsover.
Screw all that .
Now the only thing im angry about is my CA.
No need to leave my calls unaswered and reject them.
Screw you. Bonkers ! { * }
Ouhkay im soo soooooo sooooooooo restless rite now !
And im typing in full speed ( for my pace lah ) cos idk i think im going bonkers soon.
Check my portal countless times.
Nothing.
No calls or any msgs frm my CA.
Nothing. Like i said earlier.
Nope im not restless. Im gg bonkers.
Im freaking out.
Ugh i feel like dialing my CA up but since its 1.06am rite now, it would not be appropriate.
Ugh. I shldn't be disturbing him. Maybe he's bedrocking or something.
Sheesh. **Bad image**
Anyways, urghhh when will morning comes. OMGGGGGAAADDDD.
Its kinda like repetition of last year.
It was the same feeling again. Waiting for my results but helllooooooooo !
School is starting in two weeks time and i don't even know what course im getting into.
The thing is, i only applied one course. GENIOUS.
No, i don't even know if i'll get a school in the first place. Gees !
Screw whatever my GPA was back then.
Even if i did good, make it to the top list, if i don't get a place in that course, im dead.
Okay okay relax. Chill.
Chill Intan chill.
***** DEEP BREATH IN AND OUT *****
Okay.
My mind is not mentally cleared.
Freaking out still.
Yet. Okay lets think positive kay intan dearest.
See im really gg bonkers, typing the post to myself ! =.=
I did good.
My GPA was good.
Yes there's competitors frm the O level students, stilll ....
STILL WHAT?
Lets just hope.
Friend said 20plus frm my class got in to Leisure and Travel Operation. Okay.
So maybe im one of the 20 ?
Thats like nearly 3/4 of the class.
Since my class has 38 people since i last recalled.
Pheww.
Okay now my mind is thinking straight. Still a lil ziq zaq .
Im nervous.
Way way too nervous.
I believe in myself. But still .. sigh idk.
If i didn't get in, im not really sure where im leading to next.
No no no im not giving up.
I'll call my CA first thing, or maybe a few things after i woke up.
Pray pray pray and just have faith in myself. =)
Rite now im the fool. U wanna know why why WHY ?
Ya'know i realized one thing about me . My ego.
Way way tooo aiyooooo *slaps forehead many times*
I totally was and am looking forward to today but then i kinda ruined it with my ego.
Fuck me. Dang it dang dang dang it !
*Slaps forehead many2 times and maybe hit myself on the wall ... *
Arghhhhhhhh ! WHYYYYYYY INTAN WHYYYYYYY ??
Ouh besides that, ITE ???
Hello helllloo?
Don't u wanna tell me what course im getting
into this coming april ??? *KNOCK KNOCK*
Awwwwww man . . ITE always does this to me.
Making me self paranoid abt what if i don't have any school, not gonna study etc
Sigh sigh sigh.
Seriously even if its April Fool, it ain't funny dear MOE. *hhmph*
And and and ! Clash of the Titans was AWESOME !
I never really thought i'll be so engrossed into the movie.
Uhm does my sentence sound right?
Yeah whatever.
Personally, i was not intrigued by the movie in the first place.
Hellooo i don't even know the story.
I only knew Zeus.
Actually I kinda roughly get the idea abt Zeus and his brothers, the Olympus or Olympic idk frm
Percy Jackson movie.
I know. Lame. =.=
Bah ! At least now i know what !
Anyway two thums up and 5 stars rating for Clash of the Titans. =D
Okay.
Now.
Bye !
And. .. . . and i didn't go for camp. *Slap forehead*
And . . . .. that leads me to thinking of how im gonna answer my CA. Mind me, its not Mr Ooi anymore. Now its Grace. Mdm or mrs whatsover.
Why didn't i go for camp?
Uhmm quite a a few simple and stupid reasons. But mind u, i've already packed for camp. The clothes, bras and undies etc.
First reason, reluctance. So were my other classmates but we have no choice what.
Second, even if im all packed, im still lacking of a torchlight and a sleeping bag. =.=
Yeah i know freaking lame reason.
Third, physcoed my dad to back me up when that Grace calls. Heehs. He agreed. I guess i shall say to her that my parents don't approve of me gg to camp. Parents orders cannot be disobeyed.
Hahhs. I know im landing myself into trouble.
Moving on . .
Tmrw my whole family will be out of town. Yayness to me but booness to me when it comes to sleeping alone in a empty house with only 3 cats. =/
Sigh see how it all goes. bye bye people. +D OMG there's camp. { Wednesday, April 28, 2010 * }
Hello guys im back here again. Blogging. Sharing. Wtv.
Errr yaah anyways, its been 2 weeks of school for me and i guess it ain't that as what i though it was back then on the first day of school. It ain't bad at all. Im loving my classmates. Aged issues hehs i still do have that but whatever i've a young face so hehs some of them even looked older than me. Pheww me. Moving on, there's camp tomorrow. CAMP.
Let me repeat myself, C A M P.
WTF is tat. I meant why should there be a camp.
I hate camp.
Well the activities i mean.
Its gonna be held at Singapore Discovery Centre. ;/
I've been wandering what the hell are we gg to do there and where the hell are we sleeping at. Mosquito repellents is one of the things on the camp list.
Mosquito repellent?
What the hell is that for?
Aren't places like SDC are air-conditioned?
I ain't sleepy in skimpy places.
Ouh well not that i've decided whether i shld be gg or not.
Its compulsary.
I'll pack later.
Lets just pack and see how it goes.
Will start packing and stop procastinating.
But urgh idk. Indecisive.
Well its only for a night. I meant 2 days and 1 night.
=/
Why can't i have a class who are freaking ditching this camp.
Dun get me wrong, im lovin my classmates. ;D
Bah.
Ouh can't wait for Saturday. Im home alone ! Yayness !
I got my own plans only when it comes to sleeping alone with only 3 cats, the imagination is really not helping.
Im happy now. Its just me. { Monday, April 26, 2010 * }
Changes.
The changes i made to myself are freaking drastic in a huge way until the furtherst word to decribe who i am was actually the first thought they had in mind.
Im not offended.
Im sad, but i guess its true,
Maybe i don't need to go to sinful places.
Sinful places doesn't tell it all, my actions does so.
Im stupid.
I believe all that.
I put on hopes and i nearly get that until i made another mistake that ruins it all.
Forever.
Now nothing could chnage back to what it was back then.
If doesn't does change, i'll accept it all.
Because maybe for me i've changed, my i guess the chnage was so little that it doesn't make
any difference to it all.
Nobody's at fault, its just me.
I may be angry cos nobody can tell how i really feel.
People may think and assumed but they don't know how i feel deep down.
Yet my actions does not shows how i really feel deep down.
And for that, it ruins it all.
Even if i said it from the bottom of my heart and it ain't a lie, the truth,
for them, its just a lie and a trick to get u back.
Labels: Ur password changed.
Im stupid. { Sunday, April 25, 2010 * }Maybe i've been blind.
Now i've realize tat u're not moving on like i tot u are. First day. { Monday, April 19, 2010 * }
In less than 2 hrs, i have to be at school.
First day of school . . .
Lets see how it goes.
Its 0035am now. Obviously first day of school had ended.
First impression?
Lets just say , i'll just endure this freaking course for two years and get back on my tourism again after this.
Ask me again why am i in Business Administration again?
I've been asking myself eversince i step into class this afternoon.
Im gonna be a good girl.
If not good, i'll try to be normal .
Cos obviously, if i have that kind of attitude last year, i'll be kicked out sooner or later.
Not that i mind, just thinking abt adult fares, boredom and waiting for January next year will be such a pain. Not really pain, just mundane.
Should i just drop out ?
Let me endure it all and lets see how tmrw goes.
Bye.
Timetable sucks.
Im gg to school at 8.
Im gg for S & W.
What a freaking joke ! =.=
I know im being such a bitch brat. Not being grateful.
The feeling is like when u get a 49 and wanting to get a 50?
U know what i mean?
And obviously im totally offscale of my insights and focus right now.
Seriously.
Damn.
Life a bitch.
Lost EVERYTHING.
Guess im just gonna fake it till i make it.
See how thing goes.
Not buying uniforms yet. I have my own plan (s) . Ouhhh the past and present. { Thursday, April 15, 2010 * }
Hi there people.
U know , well idk.
Okay lets see. .. ouh yaa i've been reading out my past posts for the whole of last year and i can say that life was not mundane at all. And u , i mean u, u made me an overall happy and jubilent person last year. I meant it. I guess im gonna have yet another different year ahead of me this year.
Im still living in the past.
Past as in 2009 past.
For the before 2009, i dun really think of it that much.
Because, for 2009, that is where everything changes and so did i.
Too much changes.
Beneficial and non-beneficial changes.
What more can i say now lets see.. . .
I guess for that one thing i know and i feel, it will remain inside me until idk when something tells me to just move on.
=)
Im letting it all go now. I guess so and i hope so hees.
Lets start again.
Monday im gg back to school people and not really excited.
I hate first day of school.
Eversince kindergarten.
To top it off, school started a week ago hahs.
Well see how it goes then.
=D Hi hello hola boo ! { Wednesday, April 14, 2010 * }
First thought, i thought this cat was playing with something red. Instead the red thing is the cat's tongue. Should be more observant next time.
Gees these days the weather is just plain humid. Really humid. Yes yes it rains sometimes but for what , a few hours and it stops. Currently my fan shows that my room temperature is 33 degrees celcius. OMG.
This is random okay. I board the bus near my school and obviously its packed with humans frm work, school especially and others etc. What bothers me when it comes to boarding a full packed bus is the plain reason that those who are covered in sweats is pushing or landing against u with their sweaty palms or arm. And for those with the extra bonus of smell. It really really ruins ur mood rite? I shouldn't have tap my ezlink just now, the bus driver won't know. Stupid me.
Another story. It really made me laugh if i overheard indonesian maids talking on the phone with their supposedly bf or someone else husbands or an old uncle who spits just anywhere they like. Really funny when they ask that person why he didn't picked up her calls, didn't reply her msgs etc.
Hahahaha. Okay i shouldn't have been listening to them but hey im malay, they are indonesian and our language are similar so i could understand them what. Hahahaha.
Ouh went for my interview. Well the interview led to the interviewee talking abt his secondary school days, talking abt immortals absorbing another immortal's power etc. I was sitting in front of him half shocked of where the converstaion led to and also kinda half asleep but make a straight face like okay okay i understand and im listening. Actually the reason of the stories he was telling me is to remind me what will happen if i mixed around with bad companies. In my head im like whaaaaattt ? I don't have minahs, mat reps, ah lians or ah bengs in my class last year. Im not defending them but its true. Yes we are quite naughty last year but we are not bad. My former CA conception of me is very bad. Truly old-fashioned. Ouhh wtv. Interview gone well after all that stories. Eventually he knew when to stop. Thank god for that.
Results will be on friday. I got a high chance of getting in. But just hope my luck is here with me.
What im trying to say abt my friends are, yes we may be naughty and jsut whimsically mischievious but when it comes to studies, we don't follow each other. We have our own interest.
Ouh well this post is getting tooooo long. Bye then. =D
Decisions { Monday, April 12, 2010 * }Uhmm no worries i won't be the irritaing ex girlfriend anymore. I decided. So have fun wit ur life. =D
Anyway my blog is alive ! Uhmmm yeah lame.
Whatever.
Im not feeling good.
But there's something for me to cheer abt !
Not totally cheer cheer hooray but yeah it makes me happy. No no relieved shld be e word.
School called me up for a interview tmrw.
Yayness.
I need to do my research on Administration.
Honestly, im not really sure abt the course.
Did a lil bit of research abt the course earlier and somehow or so i roughly get the idea
but not that much.
Ouh well whatever it is, i won't blow this opportunity.
Hopefully i can into the course.
I can see hope.
Nonsense crappers me.
Ouhkay thats about all i can say here.
Update tmrw.
Awwww.. . I love u ghostly readers.
I gotta take a shower now. The first for the day and its nearly 7pm hahahaahaha !
BYE !
Of course im sad. But no use hanging ard u anymore if nothing is changing. Don't think im doing good and jolly well happy cos im not.
Labels: a friend then i'll be., No worries
{ * }Ugh i can't sleep.
Eventhough i slept like 5plus in the morning yesterday and woke up like 6hrs later.
I was sleepy thru out the day and managed to somehow sleep for 2omins just nice before
Hairspray started.
Missed the Shrek Forever and After thingy.
I repeat.
Ugh i can't sleep.
Kept tossing and turning.
Then lay still and started what else besides daydreaming.
Im still not used to it.
Not this unable to sleep situation, just this one thing that will always be in my mind.
One thing.
One person.
And to top it all, everything else just sucks.
My life sucks right now.
Totally. Useless.
Sigh.
People are getting ready for school tmrw but im not.
Fine i know others may have the same situation as me but seriously, it sucks isn't it?
At the age of just 19, well in my case lets just say 18.
Im like lost.
March and April dislikes me so much.
Many things happened during this two months.
At least last year April, im kinda have a life, have a school and have someone by my side.
Ouhh intan, let it go.
Reality checked intan, nothing will change for this one matter that is always stucked in ur mind.
But how could i not to ?
Not thinking about it.
Its hard to let go.
I can't move forward cos i kept reversing and get stuck there.
Sigh.
I really hope my appeal will be a successful one.
Please ITE, at least give me something to cheer me up.
Labels: it won't come true., Stop daydreaming
Mistakes { Sunday, April 11, 2010 * }Mistakes.
Looking back at it all and wonder how we can turn back time to change it all.
But what for. If mistakes are being made again.
Or its too late to do something abt it.
Everything lost.
Everything ended.
Everything crashed down.
And the sad thing is when u know its u who made it to what it is now.
It hurts.
But then u finally understood that it hurt that other person more than we imagine it to be.
Then, like i said, everything ended.
Because its u who lead to all these.
These mistakes.
I lead to all these. My mistakes.
Reality checked and im awake now. No more daydreaming.
I accept it.
No worries. I'll move on.
Thank you for everything. I appreciate it all.
Even if i meant nothing, u still and always mean something to me.
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How to train your . .. self { Wednesday, April 7, 2010 * }Okay the title doesn't really make .. uhmmmm idk.
Okay cut cut.
Hello there dear ghostly readers !
I hope ya'll are doing fine cos im not really doing that fine yet.
Anyways, the past posts that i blogged was all solely regarding my education.
And ... the problem is still lingering around me until next week.
Only if the results is succesful. ** Pray pray hard **
Helllooo those eligible for poly just go ahead with poly lah, don't linger your time in the course i wanted. Just shoo shoo away and let people like me enter that course.
I think im saying this to the O level students. Ha ha ha.
Well back to serious matter. i've three choices by now. So hope either one will do me good.
Okay enough of that. Lets go to the fun fun stuffs.
Okay cut cut.
Hello there dear ghostly readers !
I hope ya'll are doing fine cos im not really doing that fine yet.
Anyways, the past posts that i blogged was all solely regarding my education.
And ... the problem is still lingering around me until next week.
Only if the results is succesful. ** Pray pray hard **
Helllooo those eligible for poly just go ahead with poly lah, don't linger your time in the course i wanted. Just shoo shoo away and let people like me enter that course.
I think im saying this to the O level students. Ha ha ha.
Well back to serious matter. i've three choices by now. So hope either one will do me good.
Okay enough of that. Lets go to the fun fun stuffs.
Watched it yesterday in 3D. Oh my god worth the 11 bucks i tell ya. Toothless is soooooo adorable ! I thought it was just a normal cute dragon, eventually its a Night Fury. The dragon who kinda brought desruction to the village whatsover.
We missed about 5 mins of the show. Only entered when Hiccup was briefing abt his village. Andpeople watching movies at P.S just seated anyhow, anywhere where seats are available. Lol. And so did we. Haha.
I still have yet watch Remember Me and When in Rome.
Date night seems preety interesting as well.
Ouh well, just waut for the time or just wait for the pirated DVDs hahaahaha. K Bye.
Appeal. Backfire and reality. { Monday, April 5, 2010 * }Hey there .
Its monday, i've to get up early and met up with my classmates to appeal.
Taken into consideration that we have no idea what to do,
end up gg from here to there and around.
Didn't get what i mean ?
Well im too sleepy-headed to explain.
Just wishes everything will go well this time.
Well, i guess my behaviour backfire me this time.
No. Its all the time.
Its not only based on GPA, other reasons as well.
For us the reasons may be invalid, but for those in charge, it is. Bah.
Friends said im stupid, blowing up my chances with my behaviour.
Teacher told me , told you so.
Well that helps.
Help in a way by making me think of how a dumbass i am.
Fine, i shall say its my fault. Im not always punctual, i often ran away frm classes and im not really in good terms with my CA.
In my way of looking at it.
Well screw me then.
Im appealing for Business Studies, Administration.
My overall GPA is more than enough to land me in that course.
Hey, even if its only ITE, i mean my working my ass of in ITE so what?
Its still a building whereby education is also being held at.
Its just the standards that are different.
So who cares?
All i can say is that, in ITE really did help improvised me a lot.
In my studies i mean.
Anyways, my overall GPA is 3.068 or something. Bah.
I may not be satisfied but well its good enough. Alhamdullillah.
Oh gees, for once i appreaciate what i got.
Now i sound like a snob.
And and and . . im waiting for the results. Im hoping hard for that.
Im not ready to enter the 'working adults' environment yet.
Neither am i ready to use adult fares. =.=
I guess for the last two weeks i've been dreaming until u hit me back to reality.
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Its a rough period of life. { Saturday, April 3, 2010 * }Im sad. Im feeling really downcast.
First thing, im lost. I mean idk where im leading to now if things isn't gg the right way.
The way ive planned it to be.
I mean, i've been lost abt my education journey once and now im in this situation again.
At least last year, i had backup plans.
Going into ITE wasn't a mistake. I don't regret it at all.
Thats why im hoping to progress in ITE but the result was devastating.
Im totally sad. I've no words to decribe what im feeling now.
Its not because i did bad in my exams okay. Get that. Thanks.
My mind getting creative by the minute, thinking of the possibilities and negatives possibilities as well.
If its negative, i'll just break down.
Im hoping i'll get into that course.
Im gonna appeal. Appeal hard.
But at the same, i don't want to do things due to desperate measures.
Like, for example, vacancies available in other courses are like engineering, megatronics etc.
Honestly, im nt interested in any.
Second thing, i don't have any idea about the courses.
And. Its common sense. Higher nitec is for 2 years.
2 years.
Im not gonna involve myself in a course that im not interested at all for two years.
Interest still take a stand in my situation. Get it?
Still. idk.
My looking forward to Monday and see how thing goes.
My plans are messed up once again. And this time im really feeling down.
For O levels, yeah i can say serve me right cos my grades ain't good. Sucks.
But now, im doing well in school.
Its like wth for me. You feel what i feel people?
Still. i have to have faith in myself again and pick myself up, think positive.
Maybe i'll be given a space and a second chance.
For now, i'll just wait.
Hey hair .. Don't ever leave me. I love you even if u don't see that in my face and the way im acting. Please.
Labels: Have faith.
Screw you. { Friday, April 2, 2010 * }SCREEEEEEWWWWW MY GOOD FCUKING GRADES OKAY !
JUST SCREW IT ALL AWAY !
Im freaking sad right now, sadder than ever.
I didn't get a school and for the vacancies left in courses, only those electronic courses that are
available.
This time, ITE really makes me feel sooo downcast and fcuking low.
It ain't funny.
I don't care if my GPA are 3 and above, i made it on the top list or whatsover.
Screw all that .
Now the only thing im angry about is my CA.
No need to leave my calls unaswered and reject them.
Screw you. Bonkers ! { * }
Ouhkay im soo soooooo sooooooooo restless rite now !
And im typing in full speed ( for my pace lah ) cos idk i think im going bonkers soon.
Check my portal countless times.
Nothing.
No calls or any msgs frm my CA.
Nothing. Like i said earlier.
Nope im not restless. Im gg bonkers.
Im freaking out.
Ugh i feel like dialing my CA up but since its 1.06am rite now, it would not be appropriate.
Ugh. I shldn't be disturbing him. Maybe he's bedrocking or something.
Sheesh. **Bad image**
Anyways, urghhh when will morning comes. OMGGGGGAAADDDD.
Its kinda like repetition of last year.
It was the same feeling again. Waiting for my results but helllooooooooo !
School is starting in two weeks time and i don't even know what course im getting into.
The thing is, i only applied one course. GENIOUS.
No, i don't even know if i'll get a school in the first place. Gees !
Screw whatever my GPA was back then.
Even if i did good, make it to the top list, if i don't get a place in that course, im dead.
Okay okay relax. Chill.
Chill Intan chill.
***** DEEP BREATH IN AND OUT *****
Okay.
My mind is not mentally cleared.
Freaking out still.
Yet. Okay lets think positive kay intan dearest.
See im really gg bonkers, typing the post to myself ! =.=
I did good.
My GPA was good.
Yes there's competitors frm the O level students, stilll ....
STILL WHAT?
Lets just hope.
Friend said 20plus frm my class got in to Leisure and Travel Operation. Okay.
So maybe im one of the 20 ?
Thats like nearly 3/4 of the class.
Since my class has 38 people since i last recalled.
Pheww.
Okay now my mind is thinking straight. Still a lil ziq zaq .
Im nervous.
Way way too nervous.
I believe in myself. But still .. sigh idk.
If i didn't get in, im not really sure where im leading to next.
No no no im not giving up.
I'll call my CA first thing, or maybe a few things after i woke up.
Pray pray pray and just have faith in myself. =)
Labels: I don't have any ciggs to smoke BAH
Its April Fool. { Thursday, April 1, 2010 * }Rite now im the fool. U wanna know why why WHY ?
Ya'know i realized one thing about me . My ego.
Way way tooo aiyooooo *slaps forehead many times*
I totally was and am looking forward to today but then i kinda ruined it with my ego.
Fuck me. Dang it dang dang dang it !
*Slaps forehead many2 times and maybe hit myself on the wall ... *
Arghhhhhhhh ! WHYYYYYYY INTAN WHYYYYYYY ??
Ouh besides that, ITE ???
Hello helllloo?
Don't u wanna tell me what course im getting
into this coming april ??? *KNOCK KNOCK*
Awwwwww man . . ITE always does this to me.
Making me self paranoid abt what if i don't have any school, not gonna study etc
Sigh sigh sigh.
Seriously even if its April Fool, it ain't funny dear MOE. *hhmph*
And and and ! Clash of the Titans was AWESOME !
I never really thought i'll be so engrossed into the movie.
Uhm does my sentence sound right?
Yeah whatever.
Personally, i was not intrigued by the movie in the first place.
Hellooo i don't even know the story.
I only knew Zeus.
Actually I kinda roughly get the idea abt Zeus and his brothers, the Olympus or Olympic idk frm
Percy Jackson movie.
I know. Lame. =.=
Bah ! At least now i know what !
Anyway two thums up and 5 stars rating for Clash of the Titans. =D
Okay.
Now.
Bye !