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A song by Jonas Brothers { Monday, April 28, 2008 * }


When You Look Me in The Eyes

Ooooohhh yea ooooh yea
If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again?
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

Moving on, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,

When you look me in the eyes.
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Welcome me back! { Sunday, April 27, 2008 * }

The first phrase dat came out from my mouth soon after I logged in was " My blog!" with a huge smile on my face till now.. Have nt been updatin fer quite a few days cz there's too much things to be done besides Im busy.. Nevertheless I still manage to find time for my bloggy. So this are some of the details bout my past few days..

Friday 25th April
Well this was the day whereby I showed off my cooking skills which was did not exactly went as the way I planned eventually. All the F&N students were gathered in the school kitchen for our O level practical exam. everyon were busy and at the last minutes, some already had their tables set while the remaining are still rushing to get their dishes and settings ready for Mdm S comments soon after that the food tasting began. It was totally food galore ! I did not managed to finished on time but luckily all my cooking turned out well. Pheww! I didn't botched but of cz I can't ran from clumsiness. The spaghetti that I've already boiled accidently fell from my hands. It happened just like dat snapped! Nevertheless, I overcome that situation and proceed on. totally lurve my bread pudding with chocolates sprinkled on it and also Hershley's chocolate cream. Urmmm yummy! Ouuh strawberries too! Enough bout dat. Photoes will be uploaded later.. (Or the next few days..busy u know)

Saturday 26th April
Fam did a small gathering for the remembrance of the forth day after grandpa left us. Since tuesday, relatives had been to my house and its kinda irritating. Yeah its good as there will be family bonding but I hardly had time fer myself. Might be a lil self-centered here but its true. Thats the reason why i went out with *** & *** earlier in the day before the gathering started. Went around the Arab streets such as Haji Lane and such did some camwhoring beforeheading back to Bugis for a lil shopping. It was fun but tiring.

Im lost fer words and totally blank . Besides the weather is killing me its so hot. Update again soon. Adieu
Its all in a matter of time. { Wednesday, April 23, 2008 * }

Everything is fine now. Should I say everything went back to normal? Behind all those laughter are sadness that could not be hide but my family remainned strong so is my grandma. Those who live will surely go back to god even if they live a thousand years old. Things happened to sudden and now the phrase ' time will tell' is true. Time do tell. Im not cryin but im just sad. Afterall he is or was my grandfather. It was a sudden loss. I shall not eleborate about dat. May god bless him in the other world. Amin.
APM LIVE!! { Sunday, April 20, 2008 * }



APM is on LIVE but I can't watch it and so is everybody else in Singapore I think.. It is shown live in Malaysia. Well at least there's technology of the creation of a radio.. Though im hearin it live but its still mundane but nevertheless im enjoying myself. Hearin from my earpiece is far more entertaining than hearin in on the radio eventhough its still the same.. I wanna be there at Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre or fer short KLCC but not the right time cz I have school and anyway there is nobody who will sponsor me ... Boohoo but still Im moving my body frm left to right enjoying eventhough I only hear voices.. Nevermind it will be shown on SURIA on 26 April at 9pm.. Soo watch it !
Again.. { * }

Im bored. Been stucked in my room since hours ago and I practically don know wat else to do. As usual im peeved cz my thumbdrive could not be read by the com. Shoot. Initially I wanted to do my czwrk but like always, things does not always go as the way we planned. I wanna go out of my room. I hungry and yeah I need some fresh air to lighten me up. How lomg are they gonna talk. It has been hours! Visitors. Ouuh I heard the door being open.. Yessa they're out! Finally now I can get my 'fresh air'. 'No air' since just now. " So how do you expect me to live alone with just me cz my world revolves ard u and its so hard fer me to breath.." Pardon me if the lyrics are messed up.. Coast is clear. Nobody else in the house except me and mum who is currently sleeping soundly on my bed. Im not anti=socila but its my grandpa's friend. How do you expect me to talk? Anyway i don't even know wat grandpas nowadays talks about.. Hmm start to get a lil curious.. Hmwrk is done except fer malay. Wanna do my timeplan but my thumbdrive could not be read. Im I repeating things again?? My PC is creating problems fer me one by one.. So frustrating. Its raining.. " Rain rain go away, come again another day" perhaps tmrw so that I would have a cosy cold atmosphere at school which eventually lead me to sleeping in class.. CT2 is tmrw. Better start revising all the necessary words and phrases to improve my compo and think of a compo to write about.. Time flies.. Now I feel lyke bloggin all the way but naah too much work to do besides Im hungry.. Fine im repeating again..
True or false? U decide.. { * }

Capricorn
Dec 22 to Jan 19
Around April 19, which was yesterday btw, Saturn will cause you & and your crush
to both unexpectedly be in the same place - which is great, since you rarely get to see him. Make the most of this moment together:
Casually start a witty conversation with him and watch as the sparks fly!
Sources: Seventeen April 2008 issue
I kinda believe dat this article is true .. But is he my crush because the one whom I started to have a conversation with was my friend (Well actually he's an x of mine) but not my crush which don't think I've feeling fer him anymore.. Urrghh wat im I blabbering about.. This is all nonsense but as ridiculous as it may be, its still true I meant was true. The source may be reliable but for sure I know there will be no sparks of fondness, love and so on between me and him. But I must say he changed a lot and he's kinda cute compared to the last time I've actually talked to him which was
I thinks years ago.. Well this is what we call HOROSCOPES. I think I should read the next issue to see if this horoscope thingy is actually true and not false.
Oouh btw, the pictures taken yesterday will be posted maybe on an another day due to technical problems. Adieu!
The beginning of my weekend.. { Saturday, April 19, 2008 * }

I feel and i want to update but it seems that my pictures could not be transfered to my com. Wat the heck! Times lyke this I wish for a lappy.. There's no nokia icon on the computer screen. I 've tried installing but to no avail. TOTALLY INFURIATED!!! Feels lyke im twitched with anger for a moment. Wat a pathetic way to end the day. Bte I nearly well actually got caught
fer something stupid due to my own blunderness. Shoot! Im peeved and I kinda have an awkward and unsettling feeling about wat my mum gonna say. Though she have not said anything yet but.. Leave it fer tmrw den. Gosh Im tired. Walkin around the Singapore town. Initially we wanted to go back to where we started but we don't instead we went to somewhere else. That place was fun yet scary and I was disgusted. I shall not elaborate more. Its not a cheap hotel btw or anywhere else its just a chum house. Friends were like bewitched or something based on their behaviors. We or at least I was bewildered. We may laugh and still camwhoring but yet chary. Thats it fer now. Still figuring out a way to transfer my pics. Annoyed yet happy. All smiles! Btw gurlfriends tanks fer accompanying me today eventhough we're tired and nervous or scared ( u know wat i mean) but still we had fun. Kamsa ham ni da! Adieu im tired and I wanna wash up.. Heees!!!
I am imcomplete
Incomplete without you
Without you Iam doomed..
Where have u gone???
Smiling all the way.. Hehehes { * }

Cho-une-ah-cheem-ee-ay-yo!! I am all into smiles rite now. Haengbokaeyo! Not basically in heaven but im just smiling all the way.. After months (actually the last I've watched it was 2 months ago??) of not watching my favourite drama, today and now is the day where I got to watch it without any disturbance.. Yaa I know its lame but hey ?! Perhaps I should find a korean guy to be my mate hahahha talkin crap again. Im currently watching the korean drama Coffee Prince. Im totally over it hehe.. Guess I better continue with my drama.. Will update again later with lots of pictures ( i think..) cz im going out with my gurlfriends.. Yaaya annyonghee kay sayo! Please don't bother bout my korean cz im still trying to understand and perhaps still have a long way to go to improve.. hehees :)
Wats happening?? { Friday, April 18, 2008 * }

Im peeved for im not sure wat the reason was or is. Lyke i've said earlier in my previous post, something had been buggin me lately. Its not because of that person or that friend but.. Im not sure myself.
Nothing better to do & anyway Im confused. { Thursday, April 17, 2008 * }

Well basically im just bloggin bcuz of the urge to blog. Sounds silly?? Wat a long day 'sigh'.. Spending 12 hrs in school was such a &%$*#@ .. Actually im lost fer words.
Something have been bugging buggin me lately. It has already been a week. Im not sure who's fault is it but I know im partly to be blame for this current situation. Its really awkward. Being in the same class and not talkin to each other. It all happened so fast. I've gained a friend and a week later, I've lost a friend. Wat luck! Time will tell how long this will go on. I talkin about a friend btw and nothing more than dat. A friend will always remain as a friend.
Im tired. It seem lyke this week passed by so fast and its already going to be the weekend when the clock strike midnite. Lucky tmrw will be a short day.
K nitex. World of utopia is calling me to board the flight. It is already the last call. K Im talkin crap so chal ja!
Has it been changed or has it not? { Wednesday, April 16, 2008 * }

I've already saved it but the ballerina kept popping out on the screen. Im changing skin cz im kinda bored with my ballerina after days of finding a skin that suits me.. Im not even sure if this skin really reflect my personality of who i am or.. Talkin crap. Ouuh yaa since I was surfing the net just now, I went to youtube to watch a video of school when my eyes catches its attention to a Prom video well basically dats the salsa video of the 4B class last year.. Envy is the word. My Prom nite will be ard 7 mths frm now? The best part is by then 11 NOv has ended. Yessa can't wait fer dat date 0900 will be the end of my stressful life struggling fer nearly a year preparing for the important examination. OMG the thought of it really exites me but fer now i'll have to accelerate. (Another 'easier said than done speech)
Stop here fer now. My 'not to be missed' show will starts in less than 10 mins afterwhich I'll continue to use the com. Nope its not fer the time wasting net surfing thingy but to complete my coursework which is due tmrw thingy. Dats all folks!
Confusion may sometimes lead to lazyness. { Tuesday, April 15, 2008 * }

Have you ever gone through a situation whereby U really want to excel or do well but as u were about to do it even when u're already ready with the pages wide open to study but lazyness struck from nowhere? (Well, that's is where I am now..)
Of cz rite? I mean every student face that or when through that kinda situation and now im really damn slothful. Unwilling to do work or use energy well dats fer sure. my eyes are tired already beggin me to give them a rest but I can't cz there are two class test tmrw .. Tanks friend *** fer giving me motivation to study tonite and thus reminding me of not losing out to that mortal! (If u know who..)A cup of coffee and washing of face will do the trick. Guess I'll be burning the midnite oil again which i don't think I can survice till dat late.. Better get crackin!
(Well obviously after bloggin i'll be surfing to other websites before proceeding to my so called burn the midnite oil thingy. )
Pictures! { Monday, April 14, 2008 * }













Saturday.. { * }

Saturday had been fun with laughters, crazyness, happiness and also gossipness and of cz frustrations..

Morning till aftrn 0300++..

Afternon 0400 onwards..

God! It was such a tiring day but the most important thing was that we had fun eventhough i was kinda frustrated at times. We may be seniors but please don't show too much of ur superiority arnd. It may be kinda embarrassing u know.

Do I realize it or not? { Sunday, April 13, 2008 * }

This was supposed to be my previous post but it turs out dat no matter how i tried, it still does not appear on the screen. Playing games with me huh?
( 15 mins ago..)
It seems lyke besides talkin about my life, I've also been blogging about the tons of hmwrk I was given. Well I know this situation is inevitable as I am already halfway through the school term and O level is nearing preety soon. April. Wow it had been tough fer the past 4 mths at school adjusting with the express life and such.
Juggling my time between school and life also mugging fer the coming O level.
Minutes by minutes,
Hours by hours,
Day by day,
Month by month,
time travel fast.
It may seem that O level may be on the later month of the year
minus off Malay which will be next month the actual paper itself,
but to think bout it, its comin preety soon and I don have much time.
To tell the truth, I am yet ready fer my MT paper.
My MT is deteriorating seriously. It may sound fatuous but its true.
Yeah I mean how could someone not cope with their own language rite
but.. Its either Im just plain lazy or Im not workin hard.Its two different thing.
My MT results fer the 1st common test weren't that bad but getting a B3 was lyke wat?!? As fer the other subjects, well Im mugging hard fer my maths but not dat hard I must say. As usual its easier said than done. I realized how hard O level can be although it does not have much different compared to N level maybe a lil difficult if u analyse properly but I'll sure I'll survive.
Aiming 20 points and below.
Hopin fer 15 actually eventhough the course I want is 25.
Nevertheless, this is the path that I chose to be and I'll make sure that I ..
( Lost fer words)
Life may be difficult rite now but by the end of the day,
its either I will be happily jumping around
OR
crying away sadly when after receiving my results.
Maybe time will tell butits the time now that will determine on how I fair for my O.
( I want to pass and I really want to eventhough Im lack of confidence in crossing through the hurdle of O level)
Why is my previous post empty?? { * }

I am basically writing because I want to ensure that the post I had been blogging since just now appear in my blog screen. Apparantly, my previous post is not. I tried editing by chnaging coulours and such but it still does not appear so this post was meant to see if it appears on the screen or not.. my blog has been giving me problems lately be it the template or so on..

Anyway im still bloggin when currently right now at this moment, I should be doing my MT essay. Guess i'll stop here fer now. Gosh my eyes are already sleepy. I even sent my msg to my father instead of sending it to Iqa.. Tired tired tired as always. My motivational speech dat I post 10 mins ago doesn't last long isn't it?

Make me smile will you? { * }

I don't understand her! Out of the sudden. she's talkin hell about money, my attitude and so on.. Bad enuf with her non stop naggingness, she's been saying this and that bout me. Yes! I've been a bad ******* of yours and i know it! Sometimes i wonder if im really ur own ******* or just a mistaken outsider. God! U know who I am and wat I am like. I tried to keep quiet but i seriously can't stand it. I know its bad to shout at you and of cz i felt guilty for shouting at my own ******* but sometimes I really can't stand it. Money can really be an issue and leads to arguments and such. Life is hellish rite now...
The Camwhores! { Friday, April 11, 2008 * }










{ Thursday, April 10, 2008 * }

Wake up. Day calls you
Wake up. Day calls you to your life: your duty.
And to live, nothing more.
Root it out of the glum night and the darkness that covered your body for which light waited on tiptoe in the dawn.
Stand up, affirm the straight simple will to be a pure slender virgin.
Test your bodys metal. cold, heat?
Your blood will tell against the snow, or behind the window.
The colour in your cheeks will tell.
And look at people.
Rest doing no more than adding your perfection to another day.
Your task is to carry your life high, and play with it, hurl it like a voice to the clouds so it may retrieve the light already gone from us.
That is your fate: to live
Do nothing.
Your work is you, nothing more.

Pedro Salinas 1891-1951
translated by Willis Barnstone
{ * }

Too much work and so lil time.. Wooh it has been a long day at school I must say. Nearly 12hrs in school today. Well not exactly,,minus off an hour & a half but its still the same, as long as Im wearing school uniform, dat means school have not yet ended for the day.. It sure betas the working time of the 9-5 adults..
We discussed bout the stress that students in Singapore are facing be it in academic perspective, social as in friends or so and health.. Even small matters leads to stress or worst depression. Yeah I agreed that stress in a positive perspective, it does help us in pursuing our dreams or goals. It gives us the drive and encouragement to do something that we think we can't do. Of cz stress still has its disadvantages too but I shall not elaborate bout dat.. Points given to the remedial class I attended this afternoon eventhough Im really tired but I still manage to pull through and concentrate a lil on wat the teacher was saying.
Guess I'll stop here fer now.. Need to complete my hmwk which i have not even started on a single one yet. Blame me fer pending my works as always. The last min person. Always doing things on the eleventh hour.. K i'll end it here..
Chal-ja!!
Can't take it anymore!!! { * }

OMG!!! Im flippin out here! I really can't stand it anymore! Gosh! Stupid! I need to wait till 8 more mins to get out of here..This is the current situation im in now.. Somehow I wish I could find a way to get out of here..
Help help help!
" Piece of Me" { Wednesday, April 9, 2008 * }

I’m Miss "American Dream"
Since I was 17
Don’t matter if I step on the scene
Or sneak away to the Philippines
They still got pictures of my derrière in the magazine
You want a piece of me?
You want a piece of me?
I’m Miss "Bad Media Karma"
Another day, another drama
Guess I can’t see no harmIn working and being a mama
And with a kid on my arm
I’m still an exception, and everybody
Want a piece of me
I’m Mrs. "Lifestyles Of The Rich & Famous"
(You want a piece of me?)
I’m Mrs. "Oh My God, That Britney’s Shameless!"
(You want a piece of me?)
I’m Mrs. "Extra! Extra! This Just In!"
(You want a piece of me?)
I’m Mrs. "she’s too big, now she’s too thin"
(You want a piece of me?)
I’m Mrs. ‘You want a piece of me?’
Tryin’ and pissin’ me off
Well get in line with the paparazzi
Who's flippin’ me off?
Hoping I’ll resort to startin’ havoc
And end up settlin’ in court
Now are you sure you want a piece of me?
(You want a piece of me?)
I’m Mrs. "Most Likely To Get On TV For Strippin’ On The Streets
"When getting the groceries, no, for real
Are you kidding me?
No wonder there is panic in the industry
I mean, please
Do you want a piece of me?
I’m Mrs. "Lifestyles Of The Rich & Famous"
(You want a piece of me?)
I’m Mrs. "Oh My God, That Britney’s Shameless!"
(You want a piece of me?)
I’m Mrs. "Extra! Extra! This Just In!"
(You want a piece of me?)
I’m Mrs. "she’s too big, now she’s too thin"
(You want a piece of me?)
I’m Miss "American Dream"
Since I was 17
Don’t matter if I step on the scene
Or sneak away to the Philippines
They still got pictures of my derrière in the magazine
You want a piece of me?You want a piece, piece of me?
You want a piece of me?
I love this song from Britney! After analysing the lyrics, i finally understood how her life have been nowadays with all the paparazziz, tabloids, gossips and such.. I must say her new album is the best!
Ooh dear im so tired.. { * }

Been tired lately so exhausted .. Just make this a short one.
The temperature nowadays is weird for example yesterday, it was raining heavily till it felt so good and comfy to roll under ur blanket but today its kinda humid I must say.. Its so hot and stuffy. Even my mood is affected by it. Need to finish up my coursework, english letter writing and a mother tongue essay.. Wow dats a lot of work to do.. Tmrw gonna be a long.. I shall continue tmrw den but fer now dats it..
WILL BE CONTINUED.....
Changed again.. { Monday, April 7, 2008 * }

  1. Well this is my third blogskin that i've used.. (Previously, there were countless blogskins that i've downloaded but nothing sticked to me..) I was actually interested on the blogskin that I helped *** with.. It has my favourite character but I think I just stick to my current skin or I'll find others.. U know Im never satisfied with what I have..
  2. Been craving for KFC since two weeks ago.. The thought of the crispy zinger ermmm yum yumm!!
  3. Ouhh yaa I've cut my hair. Friends said it short and I think so too but wat to do? Blame that auntie fer not listening to me properly..
  4. I've been figuring out what's wrong with a crony of mine eventhought I know what's her reasons fer behaving lyke this.. I just hope that she'll realize that we are always there fer her regardless how she feels or how she behave.. She still a friend and that camaraderie bond is still there.. Thought im angry but i still want her to reconcile with us..
  5. Time will tell..
Back to the old blog.. { Sunday, April 6, 2008 * }

Yesssa!!! My blog had been operated. Thank to Dr Twinx fer helping me out to solve the problem. Now my blog is fine and thank god it does not have to be hospitalised.
K im a talkin CRAP rite now..
U know i really like my friends.
News travel very fast..
It seems that our news satelite is so big that a news can be detected within a few hours..
Well today went to the Hospital to see GRANDPA.. He's fine but as u all know, old people are senile and they tend to forget. GRANDPA actually said that he had not ben given food fer 4 day?! Of cz my relatives and I knew that he was talkin CRAP but just to add in the fun we asked the nurse.. "Saya dah bagi.." said the nurse. In translation she had given food to GRANDPA.
Senile remember??
It has been a very tiring weekend and I didn't get the ample rest that i REALLY need..
Gosh im tired.
Almost forgotten about the Geography essay.
Hmm.. sleepy sleepy...
HATE IT!!! { * }

Urgghhhh!!!!!! Im so mad!!! Well as you all can see my blog had been reverted to the old layout thingy.. I don't know how it happened but my template had been chnaged into layout and i can't change my skins anymore.. Me and my damn itchy fingers!!!! Now i've no mood to update my blog and this means forever until i've find a solution.. So thats it for now BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Currently my favourite song at the moment.. { * }

Some how I know I will find a way
To a brighter day in the sun
Somewhere I know that he waits for me
Someday soon he'll see I'm the one
I won't give up on this feeling
And nothing could keep me away
Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and I were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
Cause I still believe
Believe in love
I know whats real cannot be denied
Although it may hide for a while
With just one touch love can conquer fears
Turning all your tears into smiles
Its such a wounderous feeling
I know that my heart cant be wrong
Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and I were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
Cause I still believe
Believe in love
Love can make miracles
Change everything
Lift ya from the darkness and make your heart sing
Love is forever
When you fall
Its the greatest time of them all
Oh I still believe in destiny
That you and I were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
Cause I still believe
Believe in love
Yes I still believe
Believe in love
Still believe in love
I still believe
Believe in love
I Still Believe
HAYDEN PANETTIERE
He appeared suddenly.. { Friday, April 4, 2008 * }

The man who made my heart beats faster and faster and my body motionless, as if in a trance appeared when i didn't expect him to..The minute I saw his face, the compulsion to flee grew stronger by the minute. Actually I know he was coming but I thought that by the time he came, I will be homed. He changed. Totally changed. He's not that guy whom I like anymore. When I looked at his face, I was disgusted. Why? I couldn't explain to myself either. We talked, we joked, we laughed and he even poked me like the way he did before but .. He's a friend. Yes he is a friend of mine. The friend who makes my heart fluttered with excitement. But that was before. Now time has changed and so are my feelings. The feeling of fondness no longer there. Its just amity.
Unconditional of Waiting ll { Thursday, April 3, 2008 * }

After a long wait, the wait finally ended. I was pist! I desperately tried to compose myself and steeled myself to remain calm in attemp to get my mind back on the right track. At times when u feel lyke doing something for example blogging and the unwanted things which are unavoidable happened when u really did not want it to happen, u will totally be annoyed rite or any other descriptions to describe ur feelins watever.. Well dats how i felt! i don't know why but i just can't stand it when the com is slow taking its own sweet time from Paris to New York.. Well dats wat had happened nearly half an hour ago.. Minutes by minutes passed with the feeling of irritation, annoyed and pisted! Actually its not a bidg deal anyway cz it happens all the time.. Maybe the com was too pampered the last few days becauses i was singing praises to it .. 'Sigh".. It really did get on my nerves..
"Somehow i know i will find a way to a brighter day in the sun.."