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Im famished. Oranges? { Monday, January 26, 2009 * }

Its only 1632 and bah im bored. What else can I post in this blog except for complaning that I am bored sigh. Ouh yeah anyways, well life wasn't that mundane cause I went out with dear girlfriends and Nasri to ECP for a kinda 'chill out session' which was at first, too jaded to even do anything cause it was scorching hot and spent most of our time talking inside the tent but the tables turned and had lots of fun. Sorry Dha, u missed the fun. I have two bruises on my leg i've been hit by a bicycle accidentally. Its ok , im fine. Talking about being deprived from holidays and leisure, ECP was jammed packed with malays and little bit here and there with indians and few other races but majority malay wins. What C. hisyam mentioned about how malays are deprived from leisure is kinda true. God so hard to find a place thats kinda apart from malays but had a good spot though i guess. Cycled, rest, talked about future, school, catching up with one another life and stories and ermm no gossips I guess? I don't remember any or maybe except a few but its that considered gossiping? Nooooo i don't think so giggles. Thought of just chill at McCafe but due to short of cash and the hell ATM machine which can't withdraw cash? Im still curious about that. Fancy having an ATM machine which can't withdra cash in a moment whereby we really needed money. Oh well I exaggerated a bit. In the end had to walk to somewhere around the neighbourhood and there you go, an ATM machine and suddenly everyone faces started to grin. Took the bus to Parkway Parade and since we didn't concentrate on the bus journey, we overshot and had to walk all the way back to Parkway Parade and finally had our dinner. Bah! So overall, its was entertaining. Still waiting for the photos twins!

Dats was Saturday and looking forward to another one but now, currently, my current situation is that Im actually waiting for my parents to come home after they went missing for 3 days! Well not actually missing, they went for a kinda honeymoon holiday instead without asking me to tag along bah! Should be a jam on the causeway I guess. Who ask them to go to KL on the first place haha. The first time seeing the carpark full of cars, red cars especially. Oh well, Happy Chinese New Year to those celebrating it. Smiles!
Short. { Wednesday, January 21, 2009 * }

Don't mind that title above cause Im sure that this post will be a short one. First of all, I would like to ask a simple question. Does anybody still read my blog? If yes, wow and if no, bah nevermind cause apparently its been dead for a week with only the lengthy post. Bah anyways, life became back to normal I suppose with hmm lets see, after 5 days of sobering, discussing and so on. Actually, my purpose of writing this is to vent my anger. Right. Anger, well not exactly anger but maybe annoyed and irritated i guess. With what? Nurulynn Tan. Does that name means that you're chinese or mixed or whatsoever? When people see the word TAN there, they will assumed that ouh so ur mixed eh? Tired of replying msgs saying that, NO... its just a name lol with a smiley face attached to it. Bah! I guess this is lame. Fancy getting peeved just because of this. Ok move on, I assumed that my blog will be dead as in for now or for a moment until something magical like a fairy godmother grant me my wishes. Ok lame again, im bored, been stucked at home for a couple of days and the furthest I will ever go will be the lift which is just a few steps away from my door to pick up my cats. Talk about being stranded in an island called Boredom. Oh well, dats all I guess.
The Result's Post. ....and the stress continue { Tuesday, January 13, 2009 * }

Results taken. Bah. Im fine now i guess, sorting out my feelings through and accepting the fact that damn I didn't do that well for O. If I was to blog yesterday, god I'll be talking crap, venting out my anger and all so probably was a good decision to calm myself down first. Tranquility for a moment. Bah. Results was totally unexpected. English, Combined, F&N, Science, what the hell happened. Can't blamed the markers for suffering from hangovers the day before marking the papers. How the hell did I get C for both F&N and science. Its like bloody hell. But whats done is done, no one to blame except myself or maybe the Cambrigde people who maybe drunk when marking the paper or preparing the paper. A good example will be the Bio paper. I feel much better today compared to yesterday, well spending money helps cheer me up a little anyways was too jaded yesterday. Just hope that HOPEFULLY things may work out as the way I planned from now like 3 years in ITE and afterwhich Poly or MDIS and pursue an advanced diploma but im just being forward looking which is a good thing right rather than running here and there not even sure which path to go. Anyways what is 3 years compared to the rest of your life doing nothing or holding a job as a sweeper down the streets. Am I talking crap? U know what, in my head im actually thinking of those who looked at your certificate for example english, and when they saw like an D7 and below, they will have the tendency to think that your english is crap when its actually not. U get what I mean? Guess most of us will have to take a longer route? If money is not the issue, I will definitely enrol in SHATEC but I guess it was not meant to be. There's no shortcut in life and every success comes after a failure right so should bear that in mind. Like I said im looking forward to changes only that before that, I have to accept these changes first.
Praying hard that I get that course if not all my plan will go down the drain, AGAIN.
M&S, u're amazing. Giving me my pay just at the right time. Well at least this time, I kept
within the budget compared to the previous shopping hunt. Went too overboard haha. Yes im smiling right now, able to make a smile on my face but god knows what lies behind that
smile right. To my friends, thanks for the words of advices and encouragement. Appreciate it.
Im tired now. Bye.
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Penning that post above sounded like I've already face the reality haha. Well currently Im trying to apply for higher nitec courses in business which hopefully, may be my luck if I did get the course thus save one year but see first. If not then I'll stick to my plan. It soesn't hurt to try and considering re-taking english and combined humans. Considering only but might have the chance to. Lets just leave it to tomorrow. I have 25 points. Sigh.
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I guess this post will keep getting longer and longer cause I keep re-editing and
its for the 3rd time now. God, just give me a moment of tranquility. Just for a moment.
Eventhough, there's smiles and laughter coming out from my face and mouth, but it didn't help
me a lot cause all the way, I kept thinking. Think of these and that. The possibilities and the negativity. I seriously could not take it anymore, there's too many choices and one of the choices willgive me a chance to be in a better position than my current situation now. Many people
are talking and it really made me think a lot, A LOT. But my heart and mind is 50/50 of me
wearing that purple skirt back. Like c'mon, are you serious? If money is not the issue.
Yes, im considering private , only thing is the cost. English and combined humanities only.
I might consider it again cause right now, im taking every opportunity thats is install for me.
I've already appealed for Higher Nitec and tomorrow, RP. If things really, really which hopefully
will not be the case that I didn't get any of these, I'll stick through my plan. God it sounded like
I just gave up like that. Seriously, im stucked. Good points pointed there but yeah seriously,
my mind is all down right now. Just simply couldn't think straight right now. Can I just die or be in a coma right now and revive back when everything is done?
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Re-editing again. Now I try to make my options wider so that I can divert to many
different paths and not just a single one. Done it all except for one which is to re-take but not for all the subjects cause I shall not dwell on subjects that I've already passed. So from now,
time will tell to determine where I am in 2 months time. Who knows I can be accepted to
RP right? No harm trying. Hello to WSSS again? Right now, I intend to move forward, move
on. Anyway spending an already 5 years and adding another year in a secondary school?
Bah no way! Kinda nightmarish just even thinking abt it. Smiles!
Ouh the current Archie song here in my blog suits my current situation right now, i just realized
only the difference is that he's singing for a girl and me , my results. Haha listen.

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Good luck wishes? Hmm thanks { Friday, January 9, 2009 * }

Fug. The feeling come again. Shoot i've been felling it like every night before Im going to bed, well not say every night but since wednesday. Don't jump to conclusions people. Im talking about my jitterbugs for the upcoming Monday or so called "The day". Its normal right to feel this way? Having butterflies in your stomach and having those ambivalence stucked within you? Really, god give me some tranquility. Seriously, im scared and i know that I am not the only one. Duhh thousand more people out there having the same feeling and thinking of different possibilities that may happen to our life and how our future or at least where we're gonna be , hmm let say the next month? Do you guys understand what I am talking about or in your heart, u're just saying "Ouh she's blabbering nonsense, she's nervous as if she's the only one feeling it" kinda thingy. I guess im over-reacting. The confidence is there only the ambivalence can still be felt. I promise myself, i vowed not to cry that day but if tears really came rolling on my cheecks, it may be due to happiness. Happiness, tears of joy. I know there'll be different variation of reactions which probably is the same every year. In my head, Im actually thinking bout how to answer people questions like " How did you fair for ur O? , Did you pass? and I guess the most highly anticipated question will be " Eh, how many points u get?" . How to deal with all these questions and most of all, my relatives. Relatives who are so damn 'worried' and 'care to much' about their niece's result. In my case, I have no idea how to deal with it, cause I hate it. Anyway, I recalled what somebody mentioned about what use is there to cry when u only have urself to blame and not the papers. U know what, I should pen this down on Sunday cause I guess I'll be feeling the same thing, same situation, avoiding all the negativities in my mind and just pray hard. Wishes of good luck heard so many times, words of encouragement and all, hmm does it really help? I guess maybe a little to boost that confidence level up. One of my new year resolution, have more self confidence. Yup should keep them in mind.
No. Im worried. Paranoid. I stopped for a while before typing this new paragraph. Yes im scared, and there's no way of denying it. Seriously. I did my best but was it good enough? Ultimately, I have to accept whatever results I get, I mean there's no use denying the truth right, its definitely not worth it. Right now im actually envisaging that actually day, I can see faces but vividly, duhh.
Ok should stop talking bout dat, its giving me jitterbugs. Anyways, Happy Birthday to Murni Erdayu and Hui Fang.
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Ironic but its true. { Sunday, January 4, 2009 * }

Ironic isn't it? I mean i've mentioned in my previous post that time passes by fast but currently now time flies or should i say drag so slow. BORED. What other words to decribe my current situation now, hmm lets see mundane, humdrum, dull, uninteresting and the list goes on and on and on. God!

I've nothing else better to do than facing this rectangular screen or watching the rectangular box. I guess Im still not use to staying at home cause i've been like so called busy for a month. For that one whole month, I rarely spent time at home or even rest on my off day. Sigh no wonder my ezlink ran out rapidly. Guess life have turned back to its original situation currently, being the normal Nurul'Intan who sleep and wake up at weird hours of the day, and basically doing nothing, allowing the day to pass from day to night and the cycle repeats until she find herself another job or doing activities that is both beneficial and makes her gaiety. Apparently right now, Nurul'Intan is just too jaded. What to do, its inevitable.

Waking up, idle for awhile and getting ready to set off to the nearly an hour journey and making sure that Im not late which obviously I usually am, hours passed without realizing the day had turned to night and off to head back to the nearly an hour journey and back home. The cycle continued for a month and its over. Am i missing my job or my collegues? Gosh its only been 3 days!

Apparently it has just been 3 days.

Received many post letters from the four Polytechnics and finished browsing all. None interest me cause the current situation now is that i've only have one course and one school in mind. I know I need backups if things doesn't go as the way it plans but hopefully it will, it surely will insya'allah amin.

Im basically staring at space. God there's nothing for me to do. i've been browsing through my Bio notes to whatever reason idk why, i've watched movies, i meant dvds and youtube and stuff still in vain. And the list goes on and on and on. Eh i've typed that phrase already rite? Actually im re-writing this post cause apparently the draft I saved yesterday only saved half of the draft I wrote. Fug.

Results will be out in a matter of days. So will be meeting my friends and classmates. Hee my dear whimsical classmates. Sounded sarcastic in the previous post. Deliberately. Yes deliberately or should i say purposely? Gurlfriends? Uhh nevermind, im too lazy to elaborate on dat. Just meet all of you when the time comes which may be the day when there's a very reasonable reason whereby we all gather i guess? Im crapping out crap and. Im counting days . .

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Two thousand and nine { Friday, January 2, 2009 * }

I've just read Sze Ming's blog and if u can imagine how I am nw, Im laughing crazily right now hahhaha its funny. Her post reminds me of how both of us will just laugh non stop all the time even when there's nothing to laugh about. Talkin bout things only we both know. From giftwrap to the Ladies department [ Mary kept saying that I've four kids whenever she finds that my hair is in a mess haha] , M&S days are over. In both melancholic and excited tone. Melancholic due to the parting with the friends and people I knew there and excited cause no need to wake up early and rushing to make sure that im not late heh. There's so many indelible moments there, like what I've mention quite a few times, a new environment and new friends, like what I wished for. Chee Kuang on the big screen hahha. From the crazy kinda horny manager oops, hey i didn't mention names ok to the ' Just do your job and have fun' superviosr haha. Those who always confused me and Nisa. Can't they see the differences? Nurul and Nisa, different hahha but its ok used to it cause it has been going for a month.

This picture proved that we are all been splashed by sugarcane water. Damn u Ronnie! Now my shoes are all sticky haha. Proven.

Anyways spent the new year with Alger, Nisa and Charles.

Alger drank till his face turned red. Damn red haha. Why did we talked about boobs again? Reached home ard 0745, hmm the train journey was quite fast cause we left Paris Ris station at 0630. Ok wrap it up. Bla3 happy new year. 2009, a new beginning, new decisions, new challenges and the thing that I most looking forward for, new changes. I want changes. Revamption. Everything. All new. New, new, new. Then where should we keep the old? Hide it?
New year resolution? Do well in school no matter what school im goin to and stop procastinating i guess. I think there's a lot more but should just keep it to myself. Speaking bout school, *gulp* results will be out in a matter of days. Its already 2 Jan, hmmm counting days already.Rumors has it thats its ard 12? Real or rumors? I've only have one course and one school in my mind and there's no backups.
Ouh did I mention my secondary friends? I guess not. Too lazy too, might as well meet them during results there. By then, everyone are present and we shall see each other. Did I sound too harsh? I guess not. Smiles!

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