Excited happiness ? ? Naah +_+ { Sunday, March 29, 2009 * }
Hey there people, readers whom I myself not even sure if they existed. +_+
Anyways, fyi this is the second draft cause apparently the 'supposed to be published' post went missing. Well not actually missing, I didn't save the draft. What a duffer I am. Sigh.
Maybe this post won't sound like a duffer penning it down cause judging by the 'missing' draft, I do really sound like a duffer. Not even sure why I am calling myself a duffer.
Here's are some of the things I could remember talking about.
Geez .. I've been emotional for the entire week. Not really that emo, there's still laughter in between but can say yeah its been an emotional week for me.
Emo not as in 'i am depressed, a loner and nobody loves me' kinda way, its more like touched and err arousing pity, heartwarming kinda way.
But of course nobody actually saw me crying like du h h. Not even my girlfriends.
Hey I do hide my tears preety well u know. My smile and laughter made it worked. How can it not be, i mean I look upon my life as a good laugh well thats what facebook said but its true.
Laughter is the best medicine.
I mean we're not in euphoria land, where everything is fun and laughther. Having to see people with excited happiness and smiling as widely as they could, as if u can put one smiling banana shape into their huge smile.
Do I still sound like a duffer ? ?
There's an advantage of all that has happened.
Hopefully people do stay true to their words and changed.
When you decided to do something, you have to face the consequences cause sometimes the things we do can get a lil chancy.
Anyways, envisaging the Sentosa trip helps enlightened my mood a little. I need to have a jolly good time of my own.
Woohooooooo splash splash here . . splash splash there . .
Camwhore camwhore here . . camwhore camwhore there . .
But still everyone's head is filled with something that we have to worry about.
Inevitable.
Wow this second draft is better than the first one. Ha ha
Ouh ouh last last ! !
I so heart Adam Lambert's rendition of Tracks of My Tears.
It made me go whoaaaaaaa *mesmerized eyes*
I am so late for this bah! He deserved that moment there. Hee
Fine fine apparently this second draft is getting lengthier. Well well goodbye then.
I hate being the opposite of what I am.
U know, sad, feeling downcast all this melacholic stuffs are really at the bottom of my life list.
But I can't deny that I've been in tears since a while ago.
Whenever the moment I was all by myself, tears came rolling down.
Aww man, I am not being melo-dramatic here but sadly as it is, its the truth.
Well, what can I say, I do hide my tears well do I?
Geez, the current situation now is not very good I must say.
Well its been nearly 2 weeks and when things was about to be normal back,
then another crisis occurs. And Im like what the hell??!
Dang it!
Eventhough life has gotten more interesting, there's always what will be a so called interval to it.
Am I talkin crap?
My life now?
Basically my room has turn to a hotel room cause I spend most of my time in here.
Luckily there's TV and stuffs, just wait till I had a DVD player and I guess the only time i'll be getting out of my room is when Im going out, bathing or looking for something to eat.
Which makes me hungry right now.
Geez my tummy is grumbling.
Life may not be as normal as before, being strangers in ur own house, missing all those laughters ans stuffs that most families do every now and then,
things are different now and Im kinda attuned to it now already.
Cause even if things when back to normal, it just won't be the same. Ice cream made my day { Friday, March 20, 2009 * }
Vanilla flavoured ice cream in the middle of the night sound simply delish. Yup currently munching/enjoying the ice cream right now while single handedly typing the sentences. Let me finish off my desert first. Brb.
Ok im back. Yummy uh humm. Well anyway its already 3 in the mornin and I can't put myself to sleep obviously. There's a moment earlier today/yesterday whereby I really wanted to blog, letting it all off my chest seriously. I mean why should I get reprimanded/confronted by being quiet? Doesn't make any sense does it? Well it kinda befuddling to me as well. Whats wrong with me just being quiet, mostly keeping to myself? I ain't see no wrong, well maybe I am keeping my distance but what else do you expect me to do. Communicate with you like old normal times ? As if nothing happened, yeah I wish but this sudden awkwardness is inevitable. I tried to remain nonchalant but u see me as being disrespectful. Yes you have a point there that u're both mad at me because of a reason which I was the so called 'culprit' and like I said I don't mind if u're losing ur trust on me but don't ever treat me like a kid. Making excuses, lying to me about this and that so that I won't repeat the same mistake again. Its already been a week. Yes I missed talking to both of you, its hard to just act nonchalant when actually you are feeling downcast. But what else do you expect me to do huh? When u started reprimanding me, honestly im like what did I do wrong this time? Im just keeping my mouth shut cause I know if I kept my mouth open, it won't be preety cause u know me. Right now, im more comfortable keeping to myself.
Enough of that. Finally let it off my chest but I keep thinking bout it. I know I should give in but im stubborn. Honestly stubborn. Having to laugh, smiling all the time which I may be faking sometime but I don't know what else I am gonna do. Sigh.
Ok lets talk about something else. I know I am a little late to update about our so called slumber party. It was slumber all right but not exactly a party although there's pure entertainment there all right hehe. Having to gather was pure fun although its not exactly satisfying cause we didn't have a chance for our girl talks and our moment of gossips bah! But besides that, it was all great. Did some cooking, watching movies from Bollywood to Hollywood, camwhoring eventhough not all the pictures were very nice, not glamorous u know with us wearing oversized t-shirts and shorts haha, and to the fun fact that we actually shared a bed together and leaving Atiqah sleeping alone on the mattress below with no fan. With me selfishly having the blanket all to myself, having Shyka to sleep in the cold with the fan just above her head. Sorry babe. To think that I seriously thought that it was 8 in the morning when it was already 12+ in the afternoon. Ladies for sure. I don't think Nisa slept at all. Hmmm whatever. We had fun at least.
Insane. { Saturday, March 14, 2009 * }
This is getting utterly insane well not trying to be dramatic here but it seems to be.
I know what I did was total madness to them and besides they already know the truth
so maybe no point hiding.
Im shedding tears right now seriously.
Im just sad.
Not feeling downcast or anything but just plain sad.
Maybe pissed was the wrong word.
I am not mad or whatsoever if they didn't have that much trust as they had to me before
but seriously, how could you ever think talking to my friends or should I say being accomplices with my friends and wanting to make them lie to me is ever gonna work? For god sake i've known them since kindergarden.
Maybe they will be hesitating to tell me at first but ultimately they will.
And that was the case.
Maybe if i've known them for a day or two, I think they might join ur clan.
I know I did something wrong but please don't have that kind of assumption.
Assumptions that im this and that.
Just so you know, i know u will not have the chance upon reading this but i know what u people have in mind.
Im this and im that.
Please I may have done something stupid but its not that absurd.
Nothing has ever changed.
I repeat nothing of me are loose.
Repeating it again for the final time. Nothing.
I know that things are beyond bewildering right now, fine fine not being dramatic here but
seriously, yesterday could be like any other day.
Normal.
Not having regrets but if the time was just perfect, it should be nothing.
Babes, I appreciate what u guys did.
Im sorry if u have to be a part of this mess too.
Sorry.
Things gonna be awkward these few days or maybe a week or so but hopefully things
will be fine.
Ok a day left before Monday appears and yes yes yes our so called slumber party with my
babes. Just make urself feel homed babes.
Like they are not used to.
Ouh btw this is not an emo post right? Cause thats definitely not the direction I was going.
Haha.
I wanna to just have fun.
Hey im not an emotional person so putting up a smile or laughing out loud won't be that daunting to me. Hehe.
Seriously im not faking to be happy cause I know i'll be.
*Smiles smiles*
Hello there dear readers, well if there are readers. Anyways, this will be just a short post. Feel like blogging and my hands are already itching to type so here it is. Made plans with Shyka to hang out at my house and did some cooking. *Cough cough* Hahaha did not want to comment further more about the preparations before we actually started cooking. Just pity the cute little onion though. But it seems artistic haha. Fine fine made spaghetti, simple spaghetti which hmm im not sure if its delicious or the other way round but its preety edible though and the spaghetti was finished in no time. Well there's actually like a 2 serving spaghetti left but no sauce. Not sure who's idea to put the whole packet hehe. So it should be considered ermm good right? Haha became desperate housewives for once. No more futher elaborations about the things that happened afterwards.
If having just two of us girls and the guys was total chaos, i can't even imagine how things will be when we had the slumber party hehe hell its gonna be fun and definitely secret sharing time.
Well maybe haha..
Ok dats all. Short day though but it was fun.
But still short hmmp!
Sure sure i'll end it here. Tata! Random random random { Saturday, March 7, 2009 * }
Helloooo . . This is just a random post just to kill time for whatever reasons hehe. So anyways, i've noticed that recently, I've been going out a lot which inevitably reduced my cash by the minute. U know with the fares and stuffs. Stuffs like hmm . .. for example ur hands are itching to get rid of the dollar notes in ur wallet or pinning ur pin code for NETS. I don't shop a lot, just a few , hmm necessary stuffs that I need? Or that I want? But u know, sometimes when u bought stuffs that u want instead of u need it, it may come in handy one day. Err am I talking crap? It sounded like crap, but just try to understand hehe. Finally bought the book after a nationwide search and guess will start reading .. ermm i guess tomorrow. I don't know why im procastinating. U know my body is feeling lethargic nowadays. Maybe due to me becoming nocturnal. Lack of sleep I guess. Sigh no relation to the previous sentence.
Made plans to go to The Salvation Army yesterday, u know to do some cheap shopping. Economic recession u know and with full enthusiasm and confident, and just when we're about to pull the door, we saw this note.
Err its along the same line. What do u know, we reached there at 4 plus with full enthusiasm to find out that it was closed. Bah! Dang it! Furthermore to add with the frustration, it was scorching hot yesterday. Bah again! *Sad sad* So headed to town. Pathetic but was worth the trip. Not forgetting a few 'over confident' moments at Borders.
Hello there earthlings hehe . .
Hmm this is random but i've calculated and i've known the twins for more than a decade. 14 years to be precise haha eversince kindergarden. Nisa is already reaching 5 years . .
Ouh well may this years continues . .
Hey there people, readers whom I myself not even sure if they existed. +_+
Anyways, fyi this is the second draft cause apparently the 'supposed to be published' post went missing. Well not actually missing, I didn't save the draft. What a duffer I am. Sigh.
Maybe this post won't sound like a duffer penning it down cause judging by the 'missing' draft, I do really sound like a duffer. Not even sure why I am calling myself a duffer.
Here's are some of the things I could remember talking about.
Geez .. I've been emotional for the entire week. Not really that emo, there's still laughter in between but can say yeah its been an emotional week for me.
Emo not as in 'i am depressed, a loner and nobody loves me' kinda way, its more like touched and err arousing pity, heartwarming kinda way.
But of course nobody actually saw me crying like du h h. Not even my girlfriends.
Hey I do hide my tears preety well u know. My smile and laughter made it worked. How can it not be, i mean I look upon my life as a good laugh well thats what facebook said but its true.
Laughter is the best medicine.
I mean we're not in euphoria land, where everything is fun and laughther. Having to see people with excited happiness and smiling as widely as they could, as if u can put one smiling banana shape into their huge smile.
Do I still sound like a duffer ? ?
There's an advantage of all that has happened.
Hopefully people do stay true to their words and changed.
When you decided to do something, you have to face the consequences cause sometimes the things we do can get a lil chancy.
Anyways, envisaging the Sentosa trip helps enlightened my mood a little. I need to have a jolly good time of my own.
Woohooooooo splash splash here . . splash splash there . .
Camwhore camwhore here . . camwhore camwhore there . .
But still everyone's head is filled with something that we have to worry about.
Inevitable.
Wow this second draft is better than the first one. Ha ha
Ouh ouh last last ! !
I so heart Adam Lambert's rendition of Tracks of My Tears.
It made me go whoaaaaaaa *mesmerized eyes*
I am so late for this bah! He deserved that moment there. Hee
Fine fine apparently this second draft is getting lengthier. Well well goodbye then.
Labels: Ur missed.
Mess { Wednesday, March 25, 2009 * }I hate being the opposite of what I am.
U know, sad, feeling downcast all this melacholic stuffs are really at the bottom of my life list.
But I can't deny that I've been in tears since a while ago.
Whenever the moment I was all by myself, tears came rolling down.
Aww man, I am not being melo-dramatic here but sadly as it is, its the truth.
Well, what can I say, I do hide my tears well do I?
Geez, the current situation now is not very good I must say.
Well its been nearly 2 weeks and when things was about to be normal back,
then another crisis occurs. And Im like what the hell??!
Dang it!
Eventhough life has gotten more interesting, there's always what will be a so called interval to it.
Am I talkin crap?
My life now?
Basically my room has turn to a hotel room cause I spend most of my time in here.
Luckily there's TV and stuffs, just wait till I had a DVD player and I guess the only time i'll be getting out of my room is when Im going out, bathing or looking for something to eat.
Which makes me hungry right now.
Geez my tummy is grumbling.
Life may not be as normal as before, being strangers in ur own house, missing all those laughters ans stuffs that most families do every now and then,
things are different now and Im kinda attuned to it now already.
Cause even if things when back to normal, it just won't be the same. Ice cream made my day { Friday, March 20, 2009 * }
Vanilla flavoured ice cream in the middle of the night sound simply delish. Yup currently munching/enjoying the ice cream right now while single handedly typing the sentences. Let me finish off my desert first. Brb.
Ok im back. Yummy uh humm. Well anyway its already 3 in the mornin and I can't put myself to sleep obviously. There's a moment earlier today/yesterday whereby I really wanted to blog, letting it all off my chest seriously. I mean why should I get reprimanded/confronted by being quiet? Doesn't make any sense does it? Well it kinda befuddling to me as well. Whats wrong with me just being quiet, mostly keeping to myself? I ain't see no wrong, well maybe I am keeping my distance but what else do you expect me to do. Communicate with you like old normal times ? As if nothing happened, yeah I wish but this sudden awkwardness is inevitable. I tried to remain nonchalant but u see me as being disrespectful. Yes you have a point there that u're both mad at me because of a reason which I was the so called 'culprit' and like I said I don't mind if u're losing ur trust on me but don't ever treat me like a kid. Making excuses, lying to me about this and that so that I won't repeat the same mistake again. Its already been a week. Yes I missed talking to both of you, its hard to just act nonchalant when actually you are feeling downcast. But what else do you expect me to do huh? When u started reprimanding me, honestly im like what did I do wrong this time? Im just keeping my mouth shut cause I know if I kept my mouth open, it won't be preety cause u know me. Right now, im more comfortable keeping to myself.
Enough of that. Finally let it off my chest but I keep thinking bout it. I know I should give in but im stubborn. Honestly stubborn. Having to laugh, smiling all the time which I may be faking sometime but I don't know what else I am gonna do. Sigh.
Ok lets talk about something else. I know I am a little late to update about our so called slumber party. It was slumber all right but not exactly a party although there's pure entertainment there all right hehe. Having to gather was pure fun although its not exactly satisfying cause we didn't have a chance for our girl talks and our moment of gossips bah! But besides that, it was all great. Did some cooking, watching movies from Bollywood to Hollywood, camwhoring eventhough not all the pictures were very nice, not glamorous u know with us wearing oversized t-shirts and shorts haha, and to the fun fact that we actually shared a bed together and leaving Atiqah sleeping alone on the mattress below with no fan. With me selfishly having the blanket all to myself, having Shyka to sleep in the cold with the fan just above her head. Sorry babe. To think that I seriously thought that it was 8 in the morning when it was already 12+ in the afternoon. Ladies for sure. I don't think Nisa slept at all. Hmmm whatever. We had fun at least.
Not very preety isn't it and obviously not that glamourous either.
Oh well this is yet another damn lengthy post of mine again.
Btw im pissed that Alexis was voted out of A.I.
Its not like I don't like Michael, is that his name? ouh watever but I feel like
Alexis is worth the competition u know. Oh well as long as Adam is safe, and a few of my other
favs, it should be all right. Kris Allen ain't that bad either. What a bunch season 8 has!
This is getting utterly insane well not trying to be dramatic here but it seems to be.
I know what I did was total madness to them and besides they already know the truth
so maybe no point hiding.
Im shedding tears right now seriously.
Im just sad.
Not feeling downcast or anything but just plain sad.
Maybe pissed was the wrong word.
I am not mad or whatsoever if they didn't have that much trust as they had to me before
but seriously, how could you ever think talking to my friends or should I say being accomplices with my friends and wanting to make them lie to me is ever gonna work? For god sake i've known them since kindergarden.
Maybe they will be hesitating to tell me at first but ultimately they will.
And that was the case.
Maybe if i've known them for a day or two, I think they might join ur clan.
I know I did something wrong but please don't have that kind of assumption.
Assumptions that im this and that.
Just so you know, i know u will not have the chance upon reading this but i know what u people have in mind.
Im this and im that.
Please I may have done something stupid but its not that absurd.
Nothing has ever changed.
I repeat nothing of me are loose.
Repeating it again for the final time. Nothing.
I know that things are beyond bewildering right now, fine fine not being dramatic here but
seriously, yesterday could be like any other day.
Normal.
Not having regrets but if the time was just perfect, it should be nothing.
Babes, I appreciate what u guys did.
Im sorry if u have to be a part of this mess too.
Sorry.
Things gonna be awkward these few days or maybe a week or so but hopefully things
will be fine.
Ok a day left before Monday appears and yes yes yes our so called slumber party with my
babes. Just make urself feel homed babes.
Like they are not used to.
Ouh btw this is not an emo post right? Cause thats definitely not the direction I was going.
Haha.
I wanna to just have fun.
Hey im not an emotional person so putting up a smile or laughing out loud won't be that daunting to me. Hehe.
Seriously im not faking to be happy cause I know i'll be.
*Smiles smiles*
Labels: Dun ask me anything.
Desperate housewives? Errr doesn't sound good. { Tuesday, March 10, 2009 * }Hello there dear readers, well if there are readers. Anyways, this will be just a short post. Feel like blogging and my hands are already itching to type so here it is. Made plans with Shyka to hang out at my house and did some cooking. *Cough cough* Hahaha did not want to comment further more about the preparations before we actually started cooking. Just pity the cute little onion though. But it seems artistic haha. Fine fine made spaghetti, simple spaghetti which hmm im not sure if its delicious or the other way round but its preety edible though and the spaghetti was finished in no time. Well there's actually like a 2 serving spaghetti left but no sauce. Not sure who's idea to put the whole packet hehe. So it should be considered ermm good right? Haha became desperate housewives for once. No more futher elaborations about the things that happened afterwards.
If having just two of us girls and the guys was total chaos, i can't even imagine how things will be when we had the slumber party hehe hell its gonna be fun and definitely secret sharing time.
Well maybe haha..
Ok dats all. Short day though but it was fun.
But still short hmmp!
Sure sure i'll end it here. Tata! Random random random { Saturday, March 7, 2009 * }
Helloooo . . This is just a random post just to kill time for whatever reasons hehe. So anyways, i've noticed that recently, I've been going out a lot which inevitably reduced my cash by the minute. U know with the fares and stuffs. Stuffs like hmm . .. for example ur hands are itching to get rid of the dollar notes in ur wallet or pinning ur pin code for NETS. I don't shop a lot, just a few , hmm necessary stuffs that I need? Or that I want? But u know, sometimes when u bought stuffs that u want instead of u need it, it may come in handy one day. Err am I talking crap? It sounded like crap, but just try to understand hehe. Finally bought the book after a nationwide search and guess will start reading .. ermm i guess tomorrow. I don't know why im procastinating. U know my body is feeling lethargic nowadays. Maybe due to me becoming nocturnal. Lack of sleep I guess. Sigh no relation to the previous sentence.
Made plans to go to The Salvation Army yesterday, u know to do some cheap shopping. Economic recession u know and with full enthusiasm and confident, and just when we're about to pull the door, we saw this note.
Friday, 6 March 2009.
We are closed at 3pm today for staffs appreciation celebration bla3.
Err its along the same line. What do u know, we reached there at 4 plus with full enthusiasm to find out that it was closed. Bah! Dang it! Furthermore to add with the frustration, it was scorching hot yesterday. Bah again! *Sad sad* So headed to town. Pathetic but was worth the trip. Not forgetting a few 'over confident' moments at Borders.
Ok dats all. Should be going out again tomorrow but we shall see. Update soon!
{ Thursday, March 5, 2009 * }
Hello there earthlings hehe . .
Can't find it in english anyways, Slumdog Millionaire is a well deserved winner for the best picture for the Oscars. Hmm to think that they won 8 throphies so yeah hehe. Its a 120mins worth of enduring the freezing surrounding of the cinema brrrrr it was so cold. Besides, its really heartwrenching to see how these kids, these slumdogs people lived. Made me appreciate what I have for a moment there and how these kids survive, feeding themselves until they are adults without their parents and all, alone by themselves, god its really . . sigh. Anyways, it was not all
tears, misery bla3, of course there's funny moments too. Like how little Jamal 'sacrificed' himself in a pool of poop just to get a signature from Amitabh Bachan haha. Lucky I wasn't eating nachos. I'll definitely start envisaging the cheese as .. ewwwww.
Anyways lets talk about these celebrity gossips. Is Dev Patel really dating Freida Pinto?
She's several years older than him so probrably just gossips. Same goes to Paris Hilton. Get ur flirtatious acts off the vampire. Same reason with Freida Pinto only dat Freida is considered more saint than Paris.
Hehehe. . And and and, Rihanna is married to CB? Seriously at P. Diddy's mansion? Wow. No comment about that.
Ok moving on . . .. before I get sued. *Smiles*
Gotten all my stuffs done for school, well as in the uniforms. There's kinda a bit of ambivalent though. Hmm just wandering how first day of school gonna be. I hate first day of school eversince kindergarden, well if I could remember heehee. I guess it will go well somehow but a little of ambivalence is inevitable. That ain't that bad.
Gotten all my stuffs done for school, well as in the uniforms. There's kinda a bit of ambivalent though. Hmm just wandering how first day of school gonna be. I hate first day of school eversince kindergarden, well if I could remember heehee. I guess it will go well somehow but a little of ambivalence is inevitable. That ain't that bad.
My same bytches, err naah babes again.
Hmm this is random but i've calculated and i've known the twins for more than a decade. 14 years to be precise haha eversince kindergarden. Nisa is already reaching 5 years . .
Ouh well may this years continues . .