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Finally after one whole day.. { Monday, March 31, 2008 * }

YES!! I've completed my RESEARCH AND DEVELOPMENT!!!! My precious babies for now!!! After one whole day striving hard to complete it, i finally managed to cross the hurdles of stress and anxiety.. Guess the hard work did paid off.. Im satisfied which the research i had done.. I must say this new research of mine did paid off with new points added and also some more informations gathered to be included in my research.. My eyes are tired so are my fingers, my neck is strain and my back aches lyke seriously. Ouch! I need a preety long rest for syre but wat to do its nearly 12 and tmrw there's school.. I guess i've to wait till the weekends to have ample rest. Shoot! I need to get up early this coming Saturday cz i need to go to JB.. Urgghh hate it! Well back to my story, the feeling of ambivalence did occured as i was saving my document. The fear of the mishap that had happened to me yesterday did conqured me.. But luckily it didn't happenned. 'Alhamdulillah..'


Ok then, this is my fourth post for the day. I do not know why my tw0 previous post falls under yesterdays date .. I shall proceed to dreamland now nut before that i need to clean up the mess surrounding me, pack the relevant things for school tmrw and most importantly cleanse my face..

Minutes to midnight..

Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis { * }

Bleeding Love


Closed off from love I didn’t need the pain Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain Time starts to pass before you know it you’re frozen But something happened for the very first time with you My heart melted to the ground found something true And everyone’s looking round thinking I’m going crazy
But I don’t care what they say I’m in love with you They try to pull me away but they don’t know the truth My heart’s crippled by the vein that I keep on closing You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding keep keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep keep bleeding love Keep bleeding keep keep bleeding love You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear but they talk so loud Their piercing sounds fill my ears try to fill me with doubt Yet I know that their goal is to keep me from falling But nothing’s greater than the risk that comes with your embrace And in this world of loneliness I see your face Yet everyone around me thinks that I’m going crazy Maybe maybe
Chorus
And it’s draining all of me Though they find it hard to believe I’ll be wearing these scars for everyone to see
Chorus
And I keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love Keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love Keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love You cut me open and I Keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love
Double Role!! { * }

Well this is my second post so far for the day.. Its just so tempting and of cz my itchy fingers kept foing to other websites rather than doing my coursework.. Guess wat people say is right internet can be addictive.. Points given on yesterday's episod on PG last night. Looking for blogskins can be so tempting that i kept changin skins! Total today will be ard 4-5 but i tink i'll leep this current one cz the more i find, the more frequent im gonna change and neglect my coursework which i need to complete it by today.. Thats the reason why i didn't attend school today because i wanna complete my coursework right?? If not for that mishap dat had happened yesterday, i won't be sittin here today thinking of ways to complete my research.. 'Sigh' wat to do..
Lyfe has to go the way it is.. (sorry bebx dats ur line!)
now its nearly one and there still no improvements in my research.. I guess i better clean myself up and continue with my quest.. Gosh dad donna freak when he sees this month's utilities bill.. Sorry dad! I come in peace!
Blank as it is.. { * }

I am supposed to be at school but im not.. Im currently at home sitting in front of the com and yup currently bloggin bcuz i have no idea wat to do with my research .. I've been sitting in front of the com for the past half an hour but not much ideas came through my head.. The miracle i was hopin for didn't happen eventually.. 'Sigh'

Ultimately, i know i've to be patient and just go through this moment of stress and anxiety.. Depression?? Naahh.. Too big of a word to describe my current situation anyway it has nothing to do with it..

Ouuhkkk.. Enough of bloggin.. I shall continue with my quest of completing my research and development.. Peservere and endure.. Yupp !

Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why must it be now?! { Sunday, March 30, 2008 * }

God! Life totally sux at the moment.. Im still sobbering since 15 mins agob when something important to me at this very moment suddenly corrupt! I can open it no matter how many time i tried. Shoot! Why must it be now? Does the folder realize how important it is to me?! Now my research is all gone! I have put so much effort in doing it and it vanish just like dat! God i've no idea how to start my research and worst still i just could not think straight! Guess Raudha's wish of our coursework having problems was granted!! Aarghh!!!! I've already completed that precious research of mine for god sake!
My files are all over me due to my tossing and throwing to vent my angerness and my frustration! my right hand hurts so is right foot because of my kicking and hitting my computer. My mind is in a mess right now thinking of thousands of possibilities that might happen such as what if my corrupted folder could not be save? I donno wat to do. Yup i am re-doin my research but it obviously won't ve the same as the previous one where i've already edited and also added some points in it. I thougght that i will now focus on my development for the erst of the evening since my research is done nut things does not always go our way doesn't it? I think i just shut down for a while, calm myself down and continue with my research and development..
Life does not always go the way we plan
Overcoming situations like this are parts and parcel of life
Ups and downs
Downs and ups
Tears and smiles
Sadness
Anger
Frustration
Stress
Happiness
Humans could not run from all this
and so can't I..
Unconditional of waiting.. { Saturday, March 29, 2008 * }

Hey !!! Its has been weeks since i've updated my blog mainly bcuz of my com which is terribly slow and also im busy with my coursework. u could not imagine the anger, stress and anxiety i've gone through while doing my coursework. Gosh time is running out. Besides my coursework, nothing happenned to me or anything fun except the crazyness of my class 5A but i didn't give me the kind of 'made my day' feeling..


We're already in our 17s but u see wat i mean..

The CRAZYNESS of 5A

I''ve nothing to update about except fer thos.. Im merely updating bcuz *** have been complaining bout me not updatin my blog..

Well dats it fer now.. I wanna clean myself up bcuz im still in my yesterday's clothing hahahx! Almost 3 but im still yet clean..

The End

Nothing much has changed.. { Monday, March 17, 2008 * }

Well today is the first day of term 2.. Pretty much the same, everyone is still lyke how should i say the same?? Things are still the same only that the timetable is longer and in total we have about 10 periods of lessons each day?! I don't have any comment yet bout the new timetable cz i've yet seen the advantages and the disadvantages of this new or the 'recycled' plan.. Gosh it feels lyke its harphal (did i spell the name correctly??) time again when he ruled WS.. Things have not changed i must say or atleast my attitude have not.. Still lazing around but now only in Physics cz i really need to improve my foundations on math also the other subjects of cz.. It is me or the teacher? The answer is obvious though.. My interest fer Physics has faded lyke totally! I mean i tried and yeah i managed to pass my class test and nearly pass my CT but i guess.. Urrghh im still not awake!! Still have 8 more months to prepare and Nov 11 will be the end of my and maybe fer all those who are sitting fer their O levels!

Tick tock tick tock.. Time is running fast!

Shoot! I missed HEROES!
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Its nearly 2am in the mornin but im still yet fast asleep cz i've just completed my hmrwk wll not entirely cz i gave up on maths and i just gave it a pass on my physics without even looking at the question.. my english is already completed only left with the summary.. Im so sleepy yet i can still blog due to the fact that the com is still on..( Pity whoever pays the bills cz i think the utilities bill will surely increase since the com barely have a rest besides the lights in our house is always on and the 24/7 fans and tv..) Perhaps the only time all the equipments, machines and switches have their break is when my family and i are not in the house lyke duhhh.. Who else will be using it maybe except fer my cats?? Just imagine if we were not at home, dis 2 cats will plug on the karokae set and meow all they want they want to?

KK enuf already tyme to get some sleep.. BIg bro is naggin lyke MUM so nitex or should i say MORNIN!!!!!
Should i call it my 'cut & paste' entry? { Sunday, March 16, 2008 * }

This was supposed to be posted nearly 50 mins ago at 0958pm but the com was so slow and i was gettin impatient so i just shut the com down and began writin in a notebook or in other words my so called 'diary'..


Here how it goes..(Cut & paste frm the notebook)


Im lyke still lazing around and sitting + walking around aimlessly lyke as if i have nothing to do but the fact is i still have some unfinished hmwrk to do.. My maths have not yet to be done so is my english and my physics with a few questions on bio still left unfinished.. UUrgghh blame myself is the only solution i have cz i keep pending the tons of hmwrk given so ultimately is my own fault.. Feel lyke skipping school tmrw.. UUrghh hello knock knock !! INTAN u're already going into term 2 of the stressful life in west spring (i wander how i got through dis past few months at school??) and its already time to get down to SERIOUS BUSINESS!! Well as usual easier said than done but i'll try and i will.. OMG lazyness really overcome me rite now!! Situation lyke dis sometimes makes me wander why did i chose to go through the SEc5 life anyway?? I guess dis the only choice i have cz i really wanna make it to Poly and make my family proud.. Hey im not cutting and pasting frm the notebook anymore haha..


Enough of dis lets move on to my happy moments today.. (Startin to cut and paste again..) Went to watch Horton in the morning and i tink nearly a quarter of the WS family was there.. Good movie yet educational.. It teaches us to respect people no matter how small they are or is dat so i don't quite remember but it has something to do with the small people..



Free movie tickets if not i rather buy the pirated DVDs cz i've no $$$ at the moment..


I still have not watch STEP UP 2 completely cz watched it online so its kinda slow the video kept stoppin lyke every 10-15 secs but still manage to watch the final dance tanks to YOUTUBE ofcz.. Great movie better than STEP UP 1 eventhough i've not watch STEP UP 1 hahah!! gosh how i wish i can just dance and have the body of Brianna Evigans or is dats how it is spelled?? Huhh 'sigh' enuf of my day or should i call it nite dreamin?? Better get back to my hmwrk or at least complete my english and maths.. Can't imagine how tomorrow gonna be lyke.. School now ends late so have to build up my stamina so i'll end it here fer now.. Lyke goes the way it is.. Feel much better after bloggin so nitex!!
Cats!!! { Saturday, March 15, 2008 * }

Haha it has only been a while since i've post but i just feel the urge to blog bout my cats!!! Yeah i've been sittin in front of the com since just now ang gosh i can cook an egg here..lol OOuuh yaa.. there's a cat hidin in front of my house within MUM's plantation.. MUM asked me to take a few curry leaves from the curry plant of cz and i was i boit confused on which to take cz there's 2 plants and i donnon which one is the curry plant which actually both are the same.. Stupid me..Made me embarrassed in front of MUM again.. Well abck to the story, after plucking the leaves tanks to my supersonic hearing hahax i heard a cat meowing.. It was so cute!! I wanna keep it but eventually big cat TAM was angry maybe bcuz he had enough of lil brothers i tink.. Recently my family adopted one frm my aunt named JON or preferably called AYEK..

KK bro is back!! Now he's gone searching for the grey cat .. Regret actually informing him bout dat cat..

OK!!!!!! Latest news of the KHALID'S family!! My bro just found the cat and it's inside our house rite now so total three cats!!! OMG!! Now big bro has a small bro and small bro now has a lil bro..One black, one white and one grey.. Well im still bloggin so i've yet seen the reactions of my cat.. Wait a min..

Now the three of them is in my room.. Well the grey is quite fierce i must say.. Now JON is sittin in front of the grey while TAM is lyke somehow protectin JON in case he needs help.. hahah its o fun yet intense .. Im just scared the 3 of them don get along well and they fight.. I must say having 3 cats is quite a lot.. Pity on TAM, after 2 yrs of being the pampered cat then suddenly JON came into the family and now the grey one.. Hmmm i tink i better suggest to my bro to give the grey one up to anybody.. Maybe the grey belongs to the level 6 or 7 people.. This is the drama of Blok 103..

Latest news: The grey cat is not officially ours..
Malacca Trip! Gosh how i wish time will rotate back.. { * }

Well it has been a week since we went to Malacca for the so called education + excursion fer the Art and F&N students.. It was so fun, there's really a good bonding between the Sec 5s and 3s and fer me, the Sec 5s really bond well as during the trip, we be ourselves and dat is not wat we usually behave in schools and ofcz seein and hearin the expected and unexpected.. Real shocking i must say.. I should have update bout dis sooner nut eventually i was more busy updating my dairyland though pictures could not be uploaded as we need to pay?? Im kinda lazy to upload the photos taken perhaps sone other tyme??
Ouuh yaa., feelings sparks but its just one-sided love and it is only temporary fondness towards him.. He's attached if not i won't mind thinkin of him day and nite! Well maybe bcuz he's just different during the trip than school.. Its obvious who im i talkin bout but it has faded tanks to ******. Talkin to him made me forget bout dis whole temporary fondness towards that guy.. That guy is only a friend and will always be..

Enjoyed the time when me, Nisa,Iqa and Nas was in our room. Each of us are very 'open' and its very funny when we think bout it.. But the most favourite room will be Nasri's room with whom he shared with Khair.. It feels so comfortable and spacious eventhough it is the same with our rooms. Maybe it was bcuz there are only the two of them and it was not crowded or messy.. Yeah but most of the memories was in their room, lyke the stories we shared, the honest views we talked about and ofcz the tyme when i watch Mohd Nasri Bin Selamat smoked in front of me. Poor guy, he suffered a whole night long of heavy flu.. If i see him smoked again, a whole long lecture will be spelled out to him one by one. I don want Nasri to be lyke dat, he is just too honest and innocent to be dat plus he's so sweet..

A week had passed so fast and Monday, term 2 will start and its time to get down to serious business. enough of foolin around and getting bad results. real bad. Its easier said than done yup i know.. But.. sometimes i wanna do well (i mean who doesn't rite?) and focus on my studies but at times lazyness really overcome me lyke now, my hmwrk has yet to be done let alone my research.. Haix just go with the flow or... The question stills lingers on my head..