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This Dream { Sunday, February 14, 2010 * }

I dreamt this.

U were out three times with someone i knew through mutual friends. 3 times. U wore red, white and black shirt. I confronted u in front of an mrt station. Confront not in a 'minah' way but saying it out like my own style, without no feelings. No feelings doesnt mean no feelings. Its just an expression. So yeah back to the dream, u denied but then i told u that girl approached me to show the pcitures taken btwn u and her. Ouh u even treated her lunch and movies three times straight.

There's a lot more to this dream.

If this dream were to become a de ja vu in the future, i'll be very happy.

I have my own reasons why.

Im not nuts. Im thinking straight.

U know what hurts the most? Fighting when we didnt even had the chance to even wish each other happy valentine day and happy anniversary. U want me to change, im trying to. Im not being sacarstic or putting up a fit or anything, im just preety much awake, can't sleep. For u i didnt, i know. Who will trust someone like me to change that easily rite. Please dun think that im happy2 typing it all out rite now, im still sad and ive broke into tears again but u wouldn't know, cos u can't see. Vice versa i see u neither and i dun feel how u feel. I get it now. Im changing.

U may think im self centred, but imagine this. If we were not gg to meet today, let me tell u this. Ive made my effort trying to be with u on this day. Taking leaves to even quitting my job. U appreciate that? I dun think so. Yes, u may say im the one who's making things complicated. Quitting my job is the riskiest thing that i ever did. No matter how good ur great are, even if ur top 15 in class, failing ur attachment will cause u the chance of moving on to h.nitec. Im expecting today, february 14. U think i dun want to mit u? I quit my job just to be with u today and u think negative abt it. One word thanks, if we are not meeting today.

U say i nvr appreciate u, well then think again.

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