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Complications { Monday, February 8, 2010 * }
I guess there's no denial that Ochre has made my life a lil bit more stressful, sad and and complications along the way. Im tired. From the long hours and then longer hours, dealing with complications along the way and having to have nags frm my dad about work frm my shitty pay to my long hrs. Im tired frm all these. I may seem nonchalant but im nt happy either. Yes, frm the pay, nags, long hours + longer hours and arguments. People wants me to quit and so do i but i have no choice. Given that its not for school sake, i won't be putting up with shitty pay and long hrs but i have to. Yes im playing safe but i do take risks once in a while. Once in a while only. But not now. Im really tired. Im stressed out and of course as usual nobody seems to see that cos im used to havin fake smiles. By the end of feb, im done with it. No more waiting till 14 march cos by the time march comes, i will be by myself again.
Yes i should be thanking myself for ruining everything between u and me. London bridge is crashing down. until this work is over and me changing to who i was before.
Personally, i like who i am now. But that is physically. Im much more less in a way frm my previous body heh. But, literally i consider that i have changed. Maybe not to my friends, my personally yes i agree that i have changed. Changes. This time of the previous year, im still that Intan u know. Gullible, innocent in a way and just plain nice haha but now. No im serious abt that nice thingy. Now im becoming to be more rude. Just plain rude and can't control my anger and yes im sorry to you cos im always venting it and showing it off on u.
BACK TO THE FIRST PARAGRAPH. Im doing it for my grade. I need a good grade to make it . I don't want to waste my GPA just because i failed tis industrial attachment. Of course i don't want to waste us either. Its been nearly a year and im loving it even if there's complications along the way. Even if the complications are always started by me. If thats what u want, i leave it to u. Ive ruined enuf already as far as im concerned.
I may not understand or feel the way u feel and neither can u. Im self centred.
I may consider quitting now even if it ruin it all.
Labels: No more tears already london bridge.
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Complications { Monday, February 8, 2010 * }
I guess there's no denial that Ochre has made my life a lil bit more stressful, sad and and complications along the way. Im tired. From the long hours and then longer hours, dealing with complications along the way and having to have nags frm my dad about work frm my shitty pay to my long hrs. Im tired frm all these. I may seem nonchalant but im nt happy either. Yes, frm the pay, nags, long hours + longer hours and arguments. People wants me to quit and so do i but i have no choice. Given that its not for school sake, i won't be putting up with shitty pay and long hrs but i have to. Yes im playing safe but i do take risks once in a while. Once in a while only. But not now. Im really tired. Im stressed out and of course as usual nobody seems to see that cos im used to havin fake smiles. By the end of feb, im done with it. No more waiting till 14 march cos by the time march comes, i will be by myself again.
Yes i should be thanking myself for ruining everything between u and me. London bridge is crashing down. until this work is over and me changing to who i was before.
Personally, i like who i am now. But that is physically. Im much more less in a way frm my previous body heh. But, literally i consider that i have changed. Maybe not to my friends, my personally yes i agree that i have changed. Changes. This time of the previous year, im still that Intan u know. Gullible, innocent in a way and just plain nice haha but now. No im serious abt that nice thingy. Now im becoming to be more rude. Just plain rude and can't control my anger and yes im sorry to you cos im always venting it and showing it off on u.
BACK TO THE FIRST PARAGRAPH. Im doing it for my grade. I need a good grade to make it . I don't want to waste my GPA just because i failed tis industrial attachment. Of course i don't want to waste us either. Its been nearly a year and im loving it even if there's complications along the way. Even if the complications are always started by me. If thats what u want, i leave it to u. Ive ruined enuf already as far as im concerned.
I may not understand or feel the way u feel and neither can u. Im self centred.
I may consider quitting now even if it ruin it all.
Labels: No more tears already london bridge.
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Complications { Monday, February 8, 2010 * }
I guess there's no denial that Ochre has made my life a lil bit more stressful, sad and and complications along the way. Im tired. From the long hours and then longer hours, dealing with complications along the way and having to have nags frm my dad about work frm my shitty pay to my long hrs. Im tired frm all these. I may seem nonchalant but im nt happy either. Yes, frm the pay, nags, long hours + longer hours and arguments. People wants me to quit and so do i but i have no choice. Given that its not for school sake, i won't be putting up with shitty pay and long hrs but i have to. Yes im playing safe but i do take risks once in a while. Once in a while only. But not now. Im really tired. Im stressed out and of course as usual nobody seems to see that cos im used to havin fake smiles. By the end of feb, im done with it. No more waiting till 14 march cos by the time march comes, i will be by myself again.
Yes i should be thanking myself for ruining everything between u and me. London bridge is crashing down. until this work is over and me changing to who i was before.
Personally, i like who i am now. But that is physically. Im much more less in a way frm my previous body heh. But, literally i consider that i have changed. Maybe not to my friends, my personally yes i agree that i have changed. Changes. This time of the previous year, im still that Intan u know. Gullible, innocent in a way and just plain nice haha but now. No im serious abt that nice thingy. Now im becoming to be more rude. Just plain rude and can't control my anger and yes im sorry to you cos im always venting it and showing it off on u.
BACK TO THE FIRST PARAGRAPH. Im doing it for my grade. I need a good grade to make it . I don't want to waste my GPA just because i failed tis industrial attachment. Of course i don't want to waste us either. Its been nearly a year and im loving it even if there's complications along the way. Even if the complications are always started by me. If thats what u want, i leave it to u. Ive ruined enuf already as far as im concerned.
I may not understand or feel the way u feel and neither can u. Im self centred.
I may consider quitting now even if it ruin it all.
Labels: No more tears already london bridge.
