I can't get myself to zzzzzzzzzZZzzzz . . { Saturday, March 20, 2010 * }
Its 3.01am in the morning. Im freaking sleepy but like my usual attempt to sleep after yawning countless time, when i hit the bed, i can't sleep. :/
Gees. Its not imsomnia, its just me thinking too much. No my brain thinking too much leading me to think, daydream as usual. :/
Anyways, im not that emo anymore. Eh wait a minute, was i emo in the first place? Naahhh no no naahhh . . emo doesn't suit me. Melancholic. Haha. Yah anyway that is, im functioning preety normal now, all sorted out , well at least for some, knowing the fact yet still not accepting. Don't understand? Nevermind. Its just me who understands it. Still yeah, yayness to me then. Its been two weeks of the two different things that had happened. Got my pay and now only 3/4 of it is left in my savings. Due to ? Idk. I didn't do any shopping lately. Its just gone like snap. Better save my money gees cos after this no more pay rolling in intan. Wakey wakey for that. :/
The world is getting smaller. People know each other. Even if u don't expect that person to know each other.
Sinful things and act may be enjoyable at times. Or its just for self entertainment. For the sake of happiness? The reason may be stupid but sometimes it just felt right. Or like i said, self entertainment.
Its 3.11 now. Dad knocking the door. Lol. Im not having 'projects' like you assumed dad. No more of that. Sigh sigh.
I know this post is about me not being able to sleep and i know i've been talking randomly for every paragraph.
Im depressed. But im smiling. Im feeling happy. Faking happy.
Oh god, i think i SHOULD sleep NOW before i blabber anymore nonsensical things.
Going off for a weekend retreat tmrw. Yay. Hmm yeah right yay.
Bye . Im sleepy. Im talking too much. Bye.
Its 3.01am in the morning. Im freaking sleepy but like my usual attempt to sleep after yawning countless time, when i hit the bed, i can't sleep. :/
Gees. Its not imsomnia, its just me thinking too much. No my brain thinking too much leading me to think, daydream as usual. :/
Anyways, im not that emo anymore. Eh wait a minute, was i emo in the first place? Naahhh no no naahhh . . emo doesn't suit me. Melancholic. Haha. Yah anyway that is, im functioning preety normal now, all sorted out , well at least for some, knowing the fact yet still not accepting. Don't understand? Nevermind. Its just me who understands it. Still yeah, yayness to me then. Its been two weeks of the two different things that had happened. Got my pay and now only 3/4 of it is left in my savings. Due to ? Idk. I didn't do any shopping lately. Its just gone like snap. Better save my money gees cos after this no more pay rolling in intan. Wakey wakey for that. :/
The world is getting smaller. People know each other. Even if u don't expect that person to know each other.
Sinful things and act may be enjoyable at times. Or its just for self entertainment. For the sake of happiness? The reason may be stupid but sometimes it just felt right. Or like i said, self entertainment.
Its 3.11 now. Dad knocking the door. Lol. Im not having 'projects' like you assumed dad. No more of that. Sigh sigh.
I know this post is about me not being able to sleep and i know i've been talking randomly for every paragraph.
Im depressed. But im smiling. Im feeling happy. Faking happy.
Oh god, i think i SHOULD sleep NOW before i blabber anymore nonsensical things.
Going off for a weekend retreat tmrw. Yay. Hmm yeah right yay.
Bye . Im sleepy. Im talking too much. Bye.